Saturday, October 10, 2009
its a cold morning..
in the early morning it rained heavily and now its still drizzling..
i had a dream.. so real until i don't wish to wake up from it..
anyway last night me and few other duty personals just sat down and chatted.. chat abt alot of stuffs.. jofri and nazree were right about many things in life.. im going to take up some of their advises, including my own..
its the 6th day but the pain doesnt feel any lesser..
in 12hrs 5mins time it's suppose to be our 31st anniversary..
but now...
my hp is quiet..
still theres a need to change my lifestyle completely now.. i've grown out of the usual computer world.. theres afew stuffs im gonna get rid.. before i leave it completely.. erik and rasheed still dun wanna give up on making me join them in WoW.. -__- for some reason i can finally feel how sickening it is to talk/hear about games.. i felt the way she did... filled with regrets, i am..
i've really grown out of it.. the day which i've always been telling myself had arrived.. theres finally a full stop..
this was already happening since afew months back.. i just feel so tired to even put my mind on games.. really feel not interested..
still i might see new games and goes "nice"? but i don't expect nor imagine myself to ever sit in front of the computer and grind like a idiot again.. wasting every precious moment..
casual games like 1hr - 2hrs of L4D etc short games should still be fun with friends though.. but no more 24/7 nonsense again..
im too simple.. really.. its time to change drastically.. but its heart wrenching that my other half will never be there by my side to share and smile with me..
have faith in yourself!
Vision and faith go hand in hand. In order to have a vision of a brighter and better future, you must have faith. If your faith is weak, so is your vision. And if your vision and faith are weak, your future will remain the same as it is today..im sorry..
if only i could turn back time..
i swear i would not be the same like before..suddenly i seem to be able to feel all kinda song which i hear.. the lyrics etc.. emotions does amplifies the power of music.. music really plays a major role in life..
Goh YC! time to punch yourself out of this stupid emotional state please! kill your heart if you have to!!
why cant i just learn from all those stronger people out there....
