life is unpredictable..

thats why dont put too much hope on it.. because just when you think you can sit back and have a cup of tea.. something might just struck you without hesitation..

sometimes i rather just walk around feeling depressed rather then to feel positive.. because whenever you let your guard down.. bad things will always find their way through and causes destruction..

i try to find a comfortable road for myself.. but i always encounter people that like to blow up this road.. so i have to walk a road created by them..

sighz.. i seriously forgetting how happiness feels like.. wats so called xin fu.. define these please..

at this age already facing so much challenge and obsticles.. makes me wonder hows life going to be like.. many years later?.. when you have your own family and you have to take care of your parents as well.. etc.. more responsibilities and devotions and with these comes greater worries and problems..

what happens if this happen? what happen if that happen?...

feeling so blank these few days.. starting to question myself even more about many things.. why am i doing this.. why am i doing that.. blah blah..

sickening.. when can i get out of this misery.. sighz..

i hate to live by each living day and seeing all the foreseen events happening one after another.. and yet i can do absolutely NOTHING to prevent/stop or changing them..

sighz.. and im getting out of my dam job! i know i've said this countless times.. but hey i've already told everyone that i want to leave.. but they fucking keep dragging and dont let me off.. i wish i can just leave but i dont know how and my fcking payslip still need them to sign to approve.. so zzzz.. its as if you better work or i dont sign your payslip..

fck it.. which fucking part time do such a kind of intense work with that kind of pathetic pay!.. tmr i going to throw all the shit to the replacement!.. she better learn it fast this time cos im not going to be patience with her anymore!.. shes taking so long to learn basic things which i learnt within a week.. and shes getting more pay then i am.. so fuckup..

sighs nowadays even blog also cant make me release my anger and problems.. im feeling harder and harder to express myself each time..

Argh..
i've had it! enough is enough!

living in pure agony everyday........

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:17 PM

meeps..

today pretty much of a dazing day.. the weather last night was so cooling and nice.. but sadly babe has to go home.. else can cuddle XD..

i must say that the last weekend is a pretty enjoyable one with babe.. its been SO long since babe can spend the entire weekend with me.. so darnnn long... thanks to FMS! give so much stupid project and craps.. worst is her group members..

haiz.. but at least now shes almost done with them.. but on the other hand.. also sad.. cos when shes done.. its also almost time for me to enlist..

sighz.. sad..

i spent alot of my time waiting for zakum.. and when i manage to get in.. my graphic crash on me.. its gay man..

Zakum!



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- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:34 PM