Thursday, June 28, 2007
hmm.. very very long never blog liaos.. hais.. life just get harder each day..
sometimes i really HATE the feeling of having no control over our lives.. it makes you wonder why?.. we're given live but not the power to control how it will be..
some people might feel that they have the power in their hand.. but i never really believed in it.. or you could say we have life but no freedom.. theres many things we're restricted to..
sighs so tiring.. i guess more or less everyone is restricted in a way or another all over the world..
funny to think we're all like characters in a premade movie?.. whatever coming towards us seem to be planned.. just waiting for us to reveal them to our eyes..
hais..
everyone will never knew how great is the feeling of freedom would be until we're on the verge of loosing them.. this applies for all areas.. i believe its just human nature.. we seldom cherish what we have until we loses them..
yet again i just couldnt see any success in my future.. and the feeling of looking far is always troubling and irritating..
sighs.. if life's just a short journey.. what would you like to achieve the most?.. i believe some people would like to be remembered as much as they could be.. while others would just like to have a simple happy life.. but as for myself.. i still couldnt come into a conclusion for this question.. its important becos it makes me wonder whats the existance of someone like me for?.. what am i to achieve in life?..
sounds stupid.. but i also duno why i always think so much.. why cant i just go with the flow like what other people does?.. is there something wrong with me?.. sigh..
regarding my love life.. im really grateful that i've found a girl thats so loving and willing to do anything just to make me happy although im stressed with her mum etc.. sigh and on the other hand.. its scary becos i dont know whats going to happen in the future.. something's making me worried and troubled every day.. many personal thoughts i think it'll be better if i just leave them in my head.. seriously somethings is better to be left hidden.. now i start to understand why some people dont like to share their troubles.. cause somethings onces said, can never be undone.. and it might lead to many other problems as well..
hais.. enuff of these..
aniway i seriously hate ECE.. and it seems like im always the suay one.. getting all the crap.. final review is reaching SOON! on the 17th.. everyone will be required to present what they've done since PD1 and with their completed project in PD2.. worst of all.. im the most shit up case.. because i did 2 different set of project.. that means im required to present 2 different project.. when i still happily thought i can throw away all my PD1 shit.. now i've to dig up my PD1 knowledge again and with a bonus of explaining my PD2 knowledge too.. what the f !?.. screw this shit!.. and i'll not be given extra credits just becos i done 2 different project while other just focused on 1 throughout the whole year.. infact if i cant explain any part of this 2 project properly.. im going to get penalised really bad.. they will say i dont understand what i've been doing blah blah blah.. zZz!
I HATE REVIEWS! and i hate talking! ahHh!
yea then i've another project now for my CSA module.. going to present about the technology of Mouse!.. and i flung my stupid CSA test sharks! when i tot i could have passed!.. arghh.. so angry.. 60% of the class failed.. but surprisingly one of the slackers actually PASSED..! omgwtfbbq.. arghhh... so yeah.. great.. i need to go for retest.. capped at 50% aniway..
and yeah to add on to the 'greatness' CSA LAB Test is coming up too in like 2weeks..
a big HAHA..zzz..
enuff of my stupid rant for now...
