Tuesday, October 14, 2008
im fucking tired..
although im out.. things doesnt seem lighter at all.. my mood's still as heavy.. and i dont know wat can ease this irritation..
tired tired tired..
i dun even feel like talking..
today had been quite a day..
morning send landrover from seletar to jurong.. PTE Maung was my v.com.. he's a new but pretty interesting guy in a sense.. we wasnt very familiar with the way so just followed closely behind CPL Luxin's rover..
after we reach jurong camp we saw our camp pple at there too for orientation.. so after sending our vehicle we took their 5ton back.. I wasnt very willing as one of the driver in the 5ton is a fcker.. and true enough when he drove us back.. he was speeding like duno wat.. we were fine until he suddenly turn into jalan murai.. fucking shit.. i was like wtf?.. hes bringing us to outfield??.. and he freaking speed inside there for around 20mins before turning out back to the main road.. i was fucking pissed.. cause the 3 of us at the back was being thrown around by the impact.. if it wasnt cause of our seat beats we would had been thrown out of the 5ton.. ccb.. imagine ur whole body just flew up and slam back down on the seat.. repeatedly.. we have to hold on to the seat tight so we wont get any real injuries.. knn sia..
then he was still laughing at the front dont know for fuck.. cfm is purposely one lor.. when we reach back to camp i was on the verge of yelling at him for his actions.. but well Lu xin screamed at him first so well i just ignore that fucker.. aniway after that we all went to report to our sir.. so just see wat he want to do with him..
it was lunch time when we returned.. but cause of this incident i kinda lost all my mood to eat.. and i was feeling uncomfortable too.. its like after a crazy rollar coaster ride.. imagine having all the banging of metals in the back carriage of the 5ton and u been thrown up, down, left, right, center.. zzzz.. no laughing matter when u're the one in that situation..
knn.. even now im feeling abit of headache.. and well becos of that i missed lunch.. and breakfast i didnt ate too.. so just now when i book out i was like all soft.. and ya in the noon i still send vehicle to regent motor for servicing..
fucking crazy day.. not going to include all the little details cause it would be too long and boring.. shit started happening from yesterday.. the detail from morning till midnight.. then this morning i woke up at 6+am so already lack of sleep..
zzz.. then still got pple keep bugging me to help them do duty cos of their personal shit they need to attend.. knn one lor.. when my birthday get burnt i also never go around begging people to help me.. why cant they get some dignity as a man.. fuckup..
i cant stand it when they just stand around do nothing when they see fellow mates being over worked.. then when they get abit of shit they keep finding all sort of ways to get out of it.. pathetic...
theres so much nasty crap about them that i probably cant finish typing.. if u ask me about good points? i seriously cant find any...
im tired..
Sunday, October 12, 2008
sighs.. this weekend passed very fast.. its like i dont know wat exactly i did and its already sunday lol.. sighs.. well at least i get to eat KFC which i was craving for awhile.. but i duno why i cant recall the taste of the chicken in my mouth already..
im so tired yet i cant really rest.. perhaps theres alot alot of things troubling me inside.. sighs.. unsastified?.. the fact that life isnt going the right way.. haiz.. sometimes life really need a balance and at the right time.. like when i eat crackers at the right time it will taste like heaven.. but when i eat it at the wrong time it taste blunt.. mood really does plays a very major role in every activity.. it can either make little things wonderful or great things meaningless and unenjoyable..
sighs.. i mentioned about the new master.. we still dont really know how exactly hes like yet.. as he haven shown his true self.. need like maybe afew more weeks before he really show how he is.. but at this point of time he already made lots of changes to our system.. sucks lor.. and hes pretty strict about certain issues..
haiz.. tmr got detail to changi until late tuesday.. i hope everything will go smoothly..
im feeling very dazed.. like as if my soul is slowly drifting away from my body.. leaving me dead and dry....
sighs.. wat to do...
Sunday, October 05, 2008
just got home from movie with babe... been out since late noon.. went to babe's church for her service.. hmm.. first time...
watched eagle eye.. pretty great action movie.. but i was too tired so i almost doze off.. bahhs..
mehs.. weekends over soon again.. hais.. next week gona face changes again.. sian.. wonder wats my duty for this month gona be like..
