written on 02.01.06..

wow.. today last day of 2005.. but well i stayed at home.. haix.. kangwei and some others went to count down at downtown.. but well i lazy man.. so i nv go.. so far leh.. go there and come back also so mafan... bahhs.. actually wanted to go mu.. but well no one go today also.. and i also scare tat town is going to be like xmas.. so crazy.. so i just stayed at home..

sian lor.. then at midnight was feeling emotional again.. wth sia.. maybe cos i see that time passes by so fast while im still the same old emotional freak and still getting fooled by love.. this made me feel so sick of life.. and i dun really have much better hopes in the year 2006.. everyone thinks that a new year better events and stuffs.. but well to me its still the same every year.. im still the same guy and i dun think anything is going to change it.. sighx.. so unless i manage to change myself.. every year is going to be the same for me..

aniway was at home on msn and talkin with selene.. and yun.. lol so pathetic 3 of us count down in msn.. and well later i also got talk to shi hui and afew friends.. lol selene pro lor.. so late go 7-11 and buy so much food.. lol.. pei fu.. i wan to go also sian.. must walk out ><.. bahhs.. and i bathed liao.. so i dun wana sweat..

haiz.. just realise that yun is such a hardcore gamer.. shes insane maple craze sia.. omg.. she tell me her level i say omg.. i really dont know how she play until so high omgosh.. faint!..

then later on selene went to meet her ex.. cos her ex ask her to come down.. at the mc donald somewhere near her house..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:36 PM

bahss.. just got home from mu.. kns lol.. im crazy.. 11+pm prepare then 12+am took cab down to town to chiong.. first time i so late go out chiong sia.. sighs.. but cause at home im so bored.. and feeling so restless.. slacking on my bed all the while.. feeling so messed up.. sighs.. so feel like going out too.. then xiaofeng was at rush..

then later i found out that selene also going mu.. so i also went down lor.. bahhs.. took cab till Far east plaza.. actually wanted to do something.. but bahh prepare too long until late.. so dun say le.. -.-.. haiz.. then met selene and her dardar yun.. then go liao nor.. i paid cover while their friend sign them both in..

when we enter.. it was already playing techno le.. shiok man.. high ar.. can dance.. sometimes feeling down go chiong can brighten u up.. especially if u close ur eyes and dance.. but yea thats crazy lar.. who will dance with their eyes closed -.-.. but well i tried before.. it feels kinda good.. especially if u've drink before that.. then abit seh seh.. thats the best.. makes u feel like ur flying man lol!.. serious.. but maybe that work on me only bah.. cos u got to like the music in the first place.. so if ur not a techno fan.. then im sure its not gona work well..

so aniway we dance on the dancefloor cos only afew people on stage.. -.- then they dun wan to go up either.. then if i go up alone.. like so weirdy.. so i also stay on the dancefloor.. aniway we dance until around 2+am i think then yun was feeling thirsty so was i.. then we went out to 7-11 for a break.. got a big gulp and yun mixed coke with sprite ice.. was pretty nice.. tasted better then wat i normally mixed.. haha! cos i always anyhow mixed.. every drink also put abit.. lmao.. hee.. then actually i wanted to get alcohol to drink.. but selene dun let me buy :x.. /piff.. duno why she dun let me buy lor.. so bad.. if i drink then i feel more high to dance also mar.. but she dun let me buy so i nv.. sob..

after we drink finish the big gulp then we went back to dance le.. hmm then around 3+am xiaofeng, koni, jace, joey and afew of their friends came down from rush.. hmm.. then i ask xiaofeng to talk to selene.. make friend mah.. else like kinda weird leh.. so i ask them talk.. then maybe next time can chiong together also ma.. more fun and joy.. so aniway yea they talked abit.. im glad.. hm then today xiaofeng was kinda different from normal.. hm.. she wore skirt?.. did she wore skirt before? i dun think so rite.. i also duno.. but she look different tat day..

but well they left quite early.. at around 4+am.. so i sent them off to cine as they wana meet some other friends.. then i go back mu to accompany selene and yun.. as they're alone.. oh well we stay till around 4:40am i think then we left... went to centre point's 7-11.. cos they wanted to eat cup noodles.. then i got my mee siam.. ever since amon introduced me the mee siam i had been eating it for about 3 times continuously.. but its the first time i buy at centre point's 7-11.. and goodness sake.. guess wat happened?.. i blow the whole thing up..!! omg lor.. cos at the other 7-11 i need to put it in the microwave for 5mins.. then at this 7-11 i put for 3mins going 4.. then the egg exploded.. omfg.. "boom".. then i say oh shit.. selene and yun also stuned.. lmao!!.. then i slowly open the microwave's door.. then in my mind.. i was thinking.. oh god.. wan dan le... inside was a big mess.. lol!! mee siam splattered all over.. i see liao i also wtf.. first time in history i blow up something in the microwave.. and from that moment i knew i wouldnt wana eat any more food thats got to do with microwave le.. so troublesome!.. i rather go back to my cup noodles... >< just need to add hot water.. grrr.. so aniway i accompany them out to the stairs and got the drinks out.. before i went back to collect my mess.. -.-".. kns so paiseh..

lucky still got some left over to eat -.-.. so i ate up the remaining mess like a retard.. after i ate then i look at them lor.. then later on can see that yun's nt feeling very good.. then selene told me wat happened.. then i also haiz.. love is really painful.. love can bring happiness but it can also bring hell.. sigh.. i ask selene to sit closer to her and talk to her.. but she said she scare later she cry.. so she rather let her be alone first.. sighs.. then we also can do nothing.. but we both can also feel the kind of pain she felt.. cos we're also troubled by love.. sighz.. but i feel that yun's very strong.. although shes feeling very sad inside.. she didnt really showed it out.. i guess im the weak one.. haiz.. we stayed till 6am then selene took cab with yun back while i took cab myself.. cos we live in different areas..

aniway today it was quite fun.. had fun dancing with selene.. then yun down there keep laughing at me.. faint.. duno wat she laughing about :x.. maybe i look like a clown bah.. :x.. moo moo... although i feel comfortable and happy with selene.. but always i feel sad and pain after that.. sigh.. duno why.. aniway tats all for now.. byee..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:57 AM

sighs.. writting this post on 02/01/2006.. 9:22pm.. been lazy so never write.. :x.. aniway this is wat happened on 29/12/05..

today i was so bored at home.. and very tired.. cos i nv sleep much as last night i was with cj.. he accompanied me throughout the night and made me felt really comfy.. i can see that he really care about me.. well at least his actions made me felt so.. sighs.. how many friends will actually show their care and concern?.. i really duno.. sighs.. last time i used to care for my friends so much.. and always giving in to them.. and supporting them.. but all i got was hurt in return.. it made me dun trust friendship as much as i do before.. and i became a tormented soul.. feeling that life is so pathetic.. sighs.. real friends? bro? do they still exist?.. this world is utterly ugly.. who will stand up and side their friends when trouble falls in.. and how many will run off saving themselves?.. im sure that i wont be the one running away.. but im always the one being dumped aside by my friends..

sighs.. life is miserable isnt it?.. if u see carefully.. its like everyone is making use of each other.. that makes me wonder how to define true friendships.. can you define it?.. if u say that true friendship is something whereby everyone go out together, watch movie etc.. and when u need someone.. they dont bother much or they think twice before they come give u support.. then to me i wont agree with u... its true that true friendship involve going out together and having fun.. but if when u're feeling sad/down or watever and they just only talk about u without doing any action like at least a sms or go and visit u.. is this still true friendship?.. i would say it require give and take.. not only u shd share all ur happy moments but also the sad one.. how many people can find a friend being by ur side when ur crying or heart brokened.. its rare.. i used to treat my friends well.. but well.. maybe they dont feel it.. and maybe i have some faults which i must admit.. like always being late and such.. but do they understand why?.. sometimes i feel that they dont even understand me after so long.. and its not that i dun wana listen to their calls always.. but sometimes i just dun wana go out.. and i duno how to turn them down.. i noe if i pick up.. i will go meet them.. sighs.. theres so much feelings inside me.. but how many people actually understand?.. sighs..

anyway.. at around night i went to met hui ting for dinner.. before that kangwei got sms me about going to Ministry of Sound.. but then cos i already promised hui ting that i'll go dinner with her.. so i tell kangwei maybe not.. hm.. i met hui ting at around near 9pm... then we went to try Ajisen.. cos i nv eat before.. hmm i ordered the spicy beef ramen.. wow.. it was quite delicious.. well the noodles was quite hard.. compare to fei cui's lamian.. but the soup was very tasty.. overall i would say its pretty nice..

after tat we went to heeren.. i wanted to get a present for yun actually.. but too late le.. reach there around 10pm.. then all the shops closed already.. grr.. then hui ting was saying she wana go Ministry of Sound too.. cos she got the sms invite.. and she can bring me in free.. sighs.. but i tell her i feel like going mu.. then ok lor she brought me in to mu.. she knew why i wanted to go mu.. eventhough i never say.. but well in the end i still tell her.. cos she keep asking me.. hais.. when we got into mu.. there wasnt much people cos its still early.. but well i was quite disappointed.. cos i never manage to find wat i wanted.. aniway hui ting was rather sian.. so hais after awhile i say.. lets go mos bah.. then she say "really? u wont regret?" .. then i say "hai.. nvm lar" then we go find cab.. kns de lor everywhere so packed.. bahh.. all wan to talk cab.. so in the end we walk back to heeren there to take cab.. bahhs..

when we reach mos.. the que was pretty short.. so after awhile we got in.. but the bouncer there check until very strict.. see our ic then see see our face.. kns like we prisoner or wat.. then after tat we got in.. kns the first room we enter is RnB de liao.. yuckky.. but the RnB room was rather small.. i think about 3/4 of mu.. then the dancer floor and the dj is surrounded by some metal fence.. like a prison likedat.. kns.. aniway i dun like it.. but overall the ambiance and surrounding is classy and well.. after tat hui ting and i look around trying to find a way out of this place.. after awhile.. finally found the way to the other corner.. when we enter.. omg.. stuned.. it was fucking huge.. like a 2 story shopping mall.. even got escalator sia.. then hui ting and i walk until lvl2 and found kangwei and xiaofeng there.. sitting down.. then i see xiaofeng like so sian sian.. then later i found out that she's sick.. haix.. she arh.. always sick still chiong de.. ><.. duno how to take care.. aniway hui ting ordered long island tea.. as she wan to try hows the drink here.. and that glass of long island tea cost $18.. omg.. faint.. hui ting let us try and i find it rather weird.. doesnt taste tat good.. goodness.. then hui ting say mu's better.. ><.. then kangwei brought us around.. wow theres a room that was really awsome.. with lights changing.. from blue, red, white and etc.. in the room has sofa and stuffs.. wow.. really nice.. its a good room for people to sit down chitchat and relax.. cool shit.. after that he brought me around the level2.. wow.. saw another dance floor on lvl2.. everyone dancing on a platform with multiple squared lights.. pretty cool.. then we saw VIP room.. wow.. and the toilet is like 5 Star hotel's toilet.. big and nice.. have small tv monitors in there too.. wow.. really classy.. but the music i really bth.. make me sian.. its house, trance kinda.. good for hip hoppers to dance i think.. as later on we went down to the dance floor we saw a girl down there jumping around.. and her style of dance look like hip hop kinda.. but for me its really not my type.. if they had techno / eurodance i'll love mos.. but too bad they dont ><.. sighs.. so after awhile i really got sick of the music there lor.. cant dance at all.. but i think for kangwei hes still ok with it.. aniway i think around 12+am we left.. cos most of us cant stand the music.. then we went to mu.. mm.. then xiaofeng sign kangwei in.. while hui ting and i went in striaght cos we already got the chop earlier.. but it was covered with mos chop.. lol at first i was thinking will they allow it anot.. but well the guy let us through.. so i guess its ok..

bah.. when we go in.. we went to the toilet steps there.. then suddenly we saw koni, jace and li xuan.. lol... then we dance at the for awhile.. then kangwei ask me to go dancefloor.. so we went down there.. then xiaofeng nv come :x.. duno why.. hais.. then suddenly.. something caught my eyes.. i turn to my right and i saw selene and yun.. wow.. i felt happy yet something else.. i nv talk to her.. but just looked at her.. hais.. afterall awhile i think she saw me too.. then we just smiled at each other.. like bai chi.. :x.. then continue dancing.. then hui ting was dancing infront of me.. and she knew wat was going on.. and keep on suan me ><.. bahhs.. aniway after awhile selene and yun went off.. then we continue to dance.. then at around 1am+ i think xiaofeng and hui ting wanted to go off le.. cos xiaofeng got interview in the morning and hui ting need to work also.. haiz.. so they went off early.. left kangwei, koni, jace and me.. after awhile RnB liao.. so sian.. so we went out to 7-11 to get some drink..

kangwei and i bought jean bean.. then someone called us.. then i saw kimster, selene, yun, and their friends.. o.o then we went over and sit down with them.. well eric was there also.. sighs.. so i also dun wana talk to selene.. then kangwei and i just talked with kimster.. after i drink the jean bean.. i feel nothing at all sia.. then i ask kimster to intro any stronger drinks.. then they say the best sold in 7-11 is long island tea.. so i go buy.. then on the way i notice koni and jace infront of 7-11.. then i ask them to join us sit there ma.. since they also noe kimster.. then later when i came back selene ask me why nv wish yun happy birthday.. lol i wanted to but duno her tat well ma so duno how to say.. but well after she said that.. then i wish her happy birthday.. at that point of time i notice eric looking at me.. well i guess eric is feeling some jeolousy bah.. so i also dun wana talk much else later eric get over jeoloused.. so i went back to kangwei and kimster.. well after i drink the whole long island tea.. wow.. feeling some kick finally.. got abit high.. they say drink 1 bottle high.. 2 bottle wana vomit 3 bottle will seh.. guess they are right... hmm next time i try 2 bottles lol..

then li xuan was having gestric pain.. hais.. she ar.. always skip meals even though she noe that she got gestric pain.. haiz.. then yong went and took care of her.. and she went home after that.. while we went back to mu to dance.. lol.. then saw selene dancing with eric.. and yun dancing with kimster.. lol hais.. while i dance on stage.. haha.. my favourite.. then later on got go back dance floor and dance with kimster.. lol.. he know how to dance well still keep saying that he duno and ask us teach him.. kns -.-" ... then at around 4am selene, yun, kimster they all went home.. i stayed till around 4:30am with koni, jace and kangwei... then it was RnB le.. sian sia.. then i ask them wana go out ma.. but they like wana stay longer.. so i went out to 7-11 alone got a drink and left at around 4:50am.. on the way back selene called me.. and we chatted till i reach home sia..

i got home at around 5am+.. then bath etc until 6am lol.. then selene cant sleep.. so chat with her till 7+ am i think.. then i go sleep liao..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
9:21 PM

oh well.. nothin much today.. but well i was feeling very dull.. and dead.. last night xandra mei smsed me asked me wat happened.. and well i replied her in the morning.. surprised that she noe about it so soon.. i duno who spread it or did she actually read my blog often.. kinda no strength to think about those..

aniway we smsed then later on i went to msn so tat it would be easier to chat.. when i got in msn.. cj msged me.. and we chatted for along time.. and i found out that xandra mei was still in bed.. but anyway she got up awhile later and chatted with me as well..

we talk about many stuffs.. sighs.. and well xandra did gave me a lecture.. but aniway after afew hours of chatting with them.. i felt slightly better..

then i went to get my books back from xandra mei later on.. cos i lend her last time to study for her O' levels.. sighs.. had fun with cj.. been along time since i met cj.. his kinda same as before.. but i felt that his more matured now...

aniway thanks cj and xandra mei.. u both made me felt better.. if without the lecture u both gave.. i guess i would really lock myself up forever.. sighz.. thanks...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:23 PM

sighs i was bored.. then i went to surf around.. and read my mei shihui's blog.. i must say im really disappointed by her post written today.. when i read i was angry.. sad.. disappointed..

so tell me wats wrong with me choosing the girl i love.. isit a sin?.. did i make a mistake?.. mistake? yes maybe cos im such a fucking indirect bastard.. dont know how to reject people.. always think of others feelings and nv think about myself.. fuck me for being such a indirect guy k!.. i really wish i can be more striaght forward.. if i can.. my life wont be so fuck!!.. it would had been much better!!.. but i noe wat i want now!!.. ok let me say it clearly.. now.. i love selene K!.. i love her.. why cant i ?.. at least i feel comfortable and happy being with her.. why cant u all just let me be happy.. !!.. why for god sake!!.. is there anything wrong in loving someone!?..

shihui.. sorry for being so indirect to u all these years.. but i had always treated u as a sister.. i tot u shd noe that i really dont feel so happy to be with you.. i tried many times.. to like you.. to accept you.. but i cant deceive myself that your not the kind of girl i want as my wife.. if im the kind of guys that anyhow de.. i would have gone stead with you and flirt you until i got bored of you then i dump you.. would you like me to do that? or you prefer wat i am now.. seriously i wont anyhow accept/love a girl without having deep feelings for her.. becos i dont want to break up.. and hurt her.. so i rather i hurt her from the start by not accepting her rather then go stead with her and then break.. as a girl u tell me lor wat u prefer.. if i ever touch a girl and get kinda close to her before.. means i tried to like her and imagine us being together.. but if after that i nv get so close with her again.. its means that i already know that its hard for me to love her and she isnt the one whom i could spend the rest of my life with.. becos onces i chosen a girl there wont be a second one.. till she hurt me badly, reject me or break with me..

seriously shihui recently i tot u had changed to be a better girl.. but after reading ur blog just now.. i felt so disappointed.. your still the same!.. being jeolous at any girl i talk to or go out with.. cant you give me some freedom?!? cant i choose who i want to spend the rest of my life with??.. cant i live for myself onces?!.. why do i have to feel restricted always.. even when writting my blog i have to write indirectly to avoid shit.. wat the fuck!!!!... if you really love me!! u should let me be happy!!.. and not make me feel guilty whenever i talk to another girl thinking on how u will react if you found out that i know or talk to a girl.. you make it seems like i am ur boyfriend and i dumped you just becos i met another girl.. this is the kind of feeling you give me always u know!.. thats why i feel very irritated and stress when im with you sometimes..! and u always say other girls infront of me when u urself hate it.. then later u show me the kind of jeolous face and stuff.. do u noe i feel very horrible and unhappy?.. u all only think about urself.. yes theres nothing wrong with you liking me.. but can u at least respect my decision!?.. imagine you're me! and im you!!.. and think of me treating you like how your treating me now.. fucking tell me if you like it k!!..

why you girls can all write/talk about other guys without having to worry wat the guy will feel.. while when guys write/talk about a girl we get treated like a bastard/sinner.. its not like we went to have sex with other girls!.. u girls only noe how to think about urselves and prejudise guys to those jerk fuckers u all had met before.. and then feel that all guys are the same.. its not true k!.. at least i know im not!.. cos if i am.. i wont be such a loser in my boring pathetic life..!

shihui many times i wanted to treat u as a real sister.. telling you all my troubles and problems.. but onces and onces again u make me feel that i cant tell u any of my problems.. esp those related to girls.. bcos u will just get unhappy and stuffs and start to make me feel even more troubled..

i didnt reply you doesnt mean that i replied everyone else.. seriously speaking i have only been talking to 1 person recently.. that thats selene.. sometimes i feel stress to talk to her and answer her calls.. becos its people like you make me feel like as if im doing some "jian bu de guang de shi".. why everyone likedat!!.. cant you all respect my life!?.. do i have to ask you all for permission and tell u everything about the girl i love before i can love her.. fuck this!.. im sick of it.. im really tired.. now not only i have to stress about selene and myself i still have to stress on how to make u all happy.. how to make everyone happy while i take all the bad feelings!!..

you all dont want me to be happy right!? fine!!.. i wont be.. and i never will be!!.. i wont be going out anymore.. thanks to you all.. i will just fucking be at home.. no girls no shit.. fucking just die!!!!.. im so sad.. all the while im trying my best not to mia.. but now.. forget it.. i feel like dying.. the last hope of my life is gone.. and i dont know who is able to give me hope again... who to blame?.. myself.. for being such a indirect guy.. sorry to all my friends.. i've break my promise onces again.. sorry.. i hope you all will be happy.. i guess life without me also wont effect much on you guys.. as im nothing but a problematic person.. who would be happy with me?.. i dont think so...

to selene.. thank you.. for all the happy moments you had given me.. you really made me feel that i exist in this world.. i love you.. i really do.. but i really dont know what your thinking.. im sorry that i've giving you so much stress before.. but i feel that the one u love is eric.. dont feel bad becos i dont mind it at all.. although im sad and hurt but as long as your happy its okay.. i dont care who u choose.. me or eric.. i only care that you will be happy.. becos thats wat true love is about.. its not about having its about being happy with who you are.. i can see that u feel happy with eric and as for me i feel that the kind of happiness i can give u isnt really the kind u're looking for.. sighs..

i wish you and eric all the best! jiayou ok selene.. im sorry that i broke the promise again.. i promised u that i wont mia.. but this time.. i really cant help it.. im sorry.. aniway its my fault that so many things happened..

i miss you..
takecare..

signin off with tears..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:40 PM

bahs.. today nothin much as usual.. hmm selene taking her basics today wonder did she made it.. sighs.. i seriously hope she made it..

sian.. bored leh.. this week gona end soon.. -.-".. then common test liao.. sian.. ysturday read through my FCS lecture book then i realise i dont really understand alot of it.. bahss.. stress.. worried that i cant score in my common test..

hais.. my feeling still very confused.. actually its not me but its her making me really confused.. i really duno wat i am to her in her heart.. friend? or something more then that.. sigh i really wan to noe.. but also scare that i would be hurt badly if she tell me.. sighs.. hopefully nature will find its way.. dont wana stress her out too.. ai yi ge ren bu yi ding yao de dao ta de ren.. zhi yao ta kai xing jiu hao le.. if you only think on how to make someone yours and never think of her happiness then i would say that is not love.. its being selfish!.. aniway i really want her to be happy thats all.. i really dont wish her to get hurt again like how she was in all her previous ex's.. sigh but i think eric shouldnt be like those that would hurt her.. and i think he is really capable of giving her happiness compared to me.. sighs.. i can feel it.. so well im preparing for the worst.. sighs.. so jia you ok selene!.. i will support u and eric de.. if u need any advise or encounter any problems.. you can always ask me i will share with you my opinions.. and if u need a shoulder i'll always be there.. just hope you wont xian qi about my shoulder not being big and comfortable enuff.. hee..

bahs.. really dont noe how to calm myself down to concentrate.. whole mind keep thinking of alot of things and cant focus at all.. sighs..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
9:06 PM

sighs just wake up nt long.. same as usual.. feeling tired.. hais.. last night suddenly got like gestric pain likedat.. then i tot i sleep liao would be ok.. but today wake up the pain is still there.. argh.. haiz.. duno wats wrong.. sighz.. looks like i need to rest more later.. k i got to go eat my breakfast liao..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:05 PM

sian.. just bathed.. hmm ysturday went to town to celebrate xmas.. actually dun wana go cos really very no mood and such.. hais.. but in the end still went cos kangwei they all keep asking me to go out in irc.. when i was in irc i was feeling so emotional.. really very sad.. sigh aniway i told them not to talk about my problem if i go out with them.. then feng was saying she will cheer me up and ask me go out..

aniway.. i prepared and got out at around 9+pm.. and i took the bus down to meet them.. but holy shit the traffic jam is a killer.. so i stop at tanglin mall and walk all the way to hereen to meet them... well on the way as i was walking i keep thinkin of someone.. sighs.. called her onces but she didnt picked up.. felt even more sad.. anyway orchard road was in total chaos.. crowded like mad!.. and everyone is crazy.. spraying each other.. some got sprayed until very bad.. goodness.. then on the way there i keep looking around to make sure i wont get targetted..

aniway by the time i reach hereen it was already 11+pm.. then we decided to go mu lor.. haiz.. on the way to there we met a guy selling those spray cans.. he selling at 1$ each.. and he selling 10 in a bag.. so its 10$.. but i heard someone complainin about the sprays not working and asking him to change.. so after we bought our sprays we check it out.. and true enuff almost half of it wasnt working.. goodness shit.. no wonder its only 1$ each.. so we ask him to change and change until got it working.. then after awhile that faggot run away.. kns.. maybe change until he no more stock.. anyway at that moment si kangwei go spray us sia.. wa liew.. nv spray other pple come spray us.. faint.. he spray my neck then my hair also wtf.. dam er xin lor the feeling.. its like soap foam on u.. but got the sticky feeling and it stinks.. holy crap!.. aniway after that we paid the cover of 28$ for mu and went in.. as members cant sign guest on all special events.. aniway duno who tell me they will give turkey.. kns.. they give us some stupid stuffs lor.. a hat, whistle, mask, party popper, and some kiddy stuffs.. faint i see liao i say wtf..

well mu wasnt as crowded as i imagined.. maybe cos its still early.. then we went to toilet to wash away those foams from the spray and then place those kiddy stuffs thats given to us in the locker.. kns kinda retarded so we only took the party poppers and whistle out.. as its the best out of all.. after tat we go get our free drink and went to the dance floor le.. soon it was almost 12am.. then the dj started the count down.. when it was 12am.. everyone used the party poppers and we spray the foams all around like crazy likedat.. lol.. mad de.. then some people ran out of the dance floor cos we was sprayin lols..

aniway it was a long and crazy night in mu.. later on there was so many people.. guess all the people in orchard road went to mu.. and it start to get crowded.. even the stage.. wa sian lor and alot beng and shit in mu.. all kbkp.. so i also sian.. aniway i also dun have much mood.. haiz.. maybe i was hoping someone actually was there.. sighs.. aniway we stay in mu till around 5+am then went out to 7-11 liao.. im surprised that at 5+am there was still quite a number of people in town.. lol first time i see so late still got quite alot of people.. the whole place is like shit.. so dirty and rubbish all over.. omg man.. and the smell of the foam is in the air -.-".. oh yea btw forgot to mentioned that there was blood on the flood near the mrt stairs.. at the pathway near the traffic light of the phoenix hotel.. then there was alot of police there lor.. sigh.. duno wtf happened.. guess some faggots got sprayed then not happy go wack the guy.. seriously i dont think many people would love to be sprayed at lor.. especially now youngsters care alot about their looks..

aniway we at 7-11 till quite late.. then around 6am it started to rain if im not wrong.. it suck man.. was a heavy rain.. then we wanted to go home liao.. but no taxi lor wtf.. we walk to cine and saw lots of pple waiting for cab there.. so we walk back to summer set mrt.. we were walking in the rain.. -.- first time after clubbing walk in rain sia.. was so freaking cold.. especially with the morning breeze.. i really felt like taking bus home.. but it was kinda late already if i take bus by the time i got home my parents would be awake.. then they confirm nag at me again.. so i waited for cab.. hais.. it was really dam fck up cos all the cab were on call or hired.. kns lor.. then later we walk to phoenix hotel.. then kangwei they all wana wait for cab there.. so i also wait.. then when we wanted to walk off to other place.. a white cab came in and a guy came out.. so we tot its available and wanted to go towards it.. then the taxi reverse sia.. then we was like wtf.. and we scold cheebye etc.. then later the guy that came out of the taxi walked towards us.. i tot he gona ask question or wat.. then later he come say.. "who say i nabei cheebye!" then i was stunned.. cos i dont remember anyone scolding "nabei cheebye".. then he keep yelling and he point at xiaofeng say "you scold me nabei cheebye isit!" then kangwei and terry go peace it out.. i was stunned lor then i also fucking angry.. i almost wanted to scold him back liao.. the words was at my throat.. then i see kangwei and terry so cool then i also dun want to screw things up then i ren lor.. but i keep staring at him.. cos he like wana fight likedat.. so i was waitin for him to do anything funny before i do anything.. then the guy scold us until dam shiok sia.. keep kbkp.. and pointing us.. knn!! i was so fucking fucking angry.. fucking early in the morning a chao farker come kan us.. somemore we was scold the cab not him lor.. wa so fucking angry.. then after awhile he went back to the cab and go off.. he in cab still diao us sia.. knn.. i feel like taking something and seh him.. but the phoenix hotel got 2 camera facing the taxi stand so i dont wana do anything stupid.. later everyone get into serious trouble.. dont think that i am some gangster or wat.. but i really damm angry lor at that moment.. u imagine u face such a situation wat u gona feel.. kns lor.. so dam irritated tat got no taxi liao then have to face this fucker.. knn he also hum ji.. say so much fuck.. he dare he wack lor.. kbkp.. he wack i more happy ar.. got reason to wack back.. self defend.. terry say he seh liao.. but i dont think so.. he walk also not like a drunk fucker.. although his eyes got abit red..

kns aniway after that the more i think the more dulan i am lor.. so dam pissed..! screw up the whole morning sia.. he ahbeng big fuck ar.. like i scare.. knn.. soooo dammm angrryyyy!!!.. grrr.... aniway we go wait for cab until 7+am.. then got a cab.. but that cab is going woodlands de nv go their house.. so kangwei ask me to go first.. sighs.. then they wait for another cab.. sighs.. then just got home and bathed.. i bath dam long sia.. fcking wash away those shitty smell, foams and the rain water .. disgusting.. grr.. its a fuckup morning...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:36 AM

sigh.. just woke up and got my breakfast.. kns.. wat i had for breakfast wasnt really appealing to me.. :x eww.. aniway got to eat.. haix.. then dad ask me eat papaya again.. kns!.. i really hate fruits >:( .. cos always got forced to eat.. grrr..

aniway today ish sat liao.. so fast!.. one week is gona end.. next week last week then common test liao.. sighx.. i guess the next week ima try to force myself sit down and study liao.. so maybe no more going out next week.. sighs.. ysturday whole day at home again.. then selene go mu celebrate her ai ren eric de birthday.. shuang lor.. while i at home so bored.. but even if she ask me go i also duno if i would.. cos feeling moodless as usual.. haiz..

kinda thinkin of it.. fate is like playing a prank on me again.. the last girl i fall for.. was also around my study break holidays.. this time around its again.. haix.. anyway the whole thing is like happening again.. makes me feel so pathetic.. seriously i dont noe wat to do.. should i just give up now to stop further hurts?.. seriously i dont noe wat she's thinking.. sometime i feel like she like me.. but sometimes not.. im very confused.. makes me really feel like giving up and kill off the feelings i already had for her before it grow deeper..

seriously i think loving someone shouldnt have doubts.. if u have feelings mean have.. no means no.. no can never become yes while yes can never become no.. in this yes no situation there can be changes but only when something bad happened.. else this 2 choices should be very clear to both parties.. dragging only makes it worst.. but well i cant blame anyone.. cos i myself will also hesitate in choosing.. its becos i always wan to find the most "ideal" girl friend.. and stick to one forever.. i dont like the idea of flirting around and break and break with girls.. im not so energetic and free like those guys that flirts and always thinking of how to "xian" new girls..

haiz.. sian.. today xmas eve leh.. why am i feeling so down and shitty.. i feel like going town and go nuts with those bangala's in orchard spraying shit around.. but yet i dont feel the motivation to get out of my house.. the kind of mia feeling is starting to surface.. but i seriously hope it wont happen again.. becos i promised alot pple that i wont mia again.. sighs.. can only hope that i dun have major depression again..

tonite i guess alot pple will be going down mu bah.. but i also no mood likdat.. haiz.. tonite need to pay cover.. wat i worry is later inside super packed.. then very sian liao.. cant enjoy.. aiya.. duno leh.. and thinkin of the fact that the whole town will be flooded with pple i also like very sian likdat.. >.<.. sighx.. see how tonite bahs!..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:41 PM

sians.. today nothin much lor.. cos at home.. hais.. yst accompany friend go town take a walk at around 8+pm.. sigh.. actually need to attend terry birthday at ktv but in the end i never turn up... hmph duno wat to write liao..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
6:27 PM

haix.. today nthin much as well.. staying at home.. sleep and slack.. haix.. feeling sad.. horrible.. some stuff happened in my life again.. and history is going to repeat.. i dont feel like writtin them out in detail now.. sighs becos it will only bring me more problems..

sighx.. some of my friends called and smsed me these few days.. but i nv answer and nv reply.. sorry.. i just got no mood.. let me be alone okay?.. sorry.. haiz.. if you all know me well.. u all shd know that if i not feeling well or got problem i will not answer any calls de.. haix.. if got important matters then sms me about it k?.. but no promise that i will reply... dont force me to reply u or wat k!.. u will either make me love u for being so caring or make me hate u for being such a irritating fcker!..

i hate it when i am emotional.. i just dun wish to be alive.. sighs.. tomorrow is y2k terry official birthday.. he celebrating at orchard party world ktv.. sighx.. duno if i got the mood to go.. i very fan.. hao fan arh!!.. my head very heavy.. my chest so tight until i cant breathe.. my heart is in a mess and its hurt onces again.. wtf am i doing?.. sighx.. why!.. why!.. why does it have to happen again!!.. why!?.. i guess it all the doing of fate.. sighx.. and this is always wat i get for letting my emotions out again.. sighx.. i shdnt had done it.. i shouldnt had! and i mustnt had!.. please kill it! kill my emotions!.. kill my feelings!.. i dont want to feel anything in my life anymore.. even if it will turn me into a zombie i also dun wan them!.. at least a zombie wont feel pain.. hurt.. or watever!.. sobb... the last time i felt this was just afew months back.. and after that i mia for afew months.. well.. wats going to happen this time?.. i dont know...

sighz.. my common test is just 2 weeks away.. dont know if i got the mood to study anymore.. i feeling so horrible.. feel like crying yet couldnt cry out .. hao xin ku!!..sob... *sings* "All the tears in your eyes, couldnt tell all the lies, will i ever be ever be me again..."

wtf argh!.. i always ask others to be more positive.. but i myself also so fckup.. haiz.. feeling very moodless.. since when?.. since that day.. i dont feel like doing anything.. just feel like sleeping and slacking until i feel nothin at all..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:10 PM

hais.. feeling so tired.. moodless.. how??.. why am i feel so meaningless.. its like suddenly something is taken away from me.. sighs.. when sad hor listen to my blog music can really feel even more sad.. sigh.. wat shd i do?.. i really dont know.. sighx..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:43 AM

hmms.. today nothing much happened.. cos im at home for the whole day mar.. the past few days continuosly keep going out until i wana go siao liao.. hais.. aniway today i just keep sleeping lor.. but in the morning i woke up at 7am cos i set my handphone alarm.. to wake selene up.. cos i noe she cfm cannot wake up de lolx.. she hor tell me if she can wake up then she cfm will go but she hor say dun wan to go le when i woke her up at 7am lol.. then she say she go for 11am de.. :x.. pengs.. then i also respect her decision and say ok bahs then i go back sleep liao.. then later on i woke up afew times but so tired to get off the bed.. then keep slacking on it until i think near noon then i get out for breakfast + lunch.. then i go back sleep again.. until like now bahs.. duno why so tired leh.. arrhz.. when i woke up hor my eyes like wa kao cannot open likdat wudi tired and my body like tearing apart.. crazy de leh.. sleep le still so tired.. wats wrong with me sia!.. how to have a good rest..

haiss.. later still must write all the previous entries that i missed out.. omg man.. alot alot to write.. i really dun feel like writtin sia.. grr.. but bobian haiss later someone say me lol!.. k bahs.. later then i write...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
6:45 PM

hais.. just wake up not long... although i woke up very early today but i went back to sleep again.. until now just ate my breakfast.. feeling kinda low today.. now feeling even more fuckup.. cos fcking dad ccb kb me cos poly send me a letter saying i fail 1 module last semester and must clear it this semester.. which is the ISP module.. and i had already cleared it this semester.. then he knn kbkp me.. say i nv study etc.. fuck la cb!.. sibei irritating lor!!!.. the only time we talk is fucking when its time to eat, when i ask for money, and when it come to studies matter.. i hate this fucking family!!.. its not even a family to me.. everyday is hell.. just like a cb hotel.. eat/sleep.. i really hate it!.. they dont even bother about my feelings! how i feel!! they always neglect my feelings.. and think of wat they want only.. they never supported me in anything before.. only know how to scold me when i do something wrong.. they are all unreasonable assholes!!.. you call this family??.. how the fuck am i going to be a healthy and successful person in life without depression and shit when i have to face this kinda fuck everyday.. can i pretend i dont see anything?.. no! its impossible.. arggggz!!.. i hate my life seriously!!.. wat kind of life is this!!... fuckkkk it!! soo pissed off!!.... everyone in my family suck!!.. no one give a damm about my feeling and my life!!.. tell them also they dun understand and make me feel even more fuck up!!...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:28 PM

aiyos.. morning almost overslept.. wake up at 7:45am wtf!.. my class at 8am!!.. faint ar.. i wake up faster go change wash up then anyhow style my hair with solid.. then ran off without taking breakfast.. then reach class at about 8:10am.. faint.. 10mins late.. but lucky they just started not long...

aniway.. finally morning hell is over.. so goood haha.. today got ESD Quiz thats why that lecturer nv kaobei me lol.. sian nor.. i hate his lab.. and i pontank 3 of his lab in 1 row.. scare tio debarred so have to go lor.. aniway today he busy marking our Quiz never come check our lab work so we can slack and relax lol !!.. slack slack for 2 hours then 10am le we went off.. lolx..

then today noe a new guy fren in ESD class.. hmm just noe him today but he very friendly ( cos he student leader etc ) talk to me alot of stuffs and share with me his experiences in life.. hmm talk and talk until girls then he teach me how to be a play boy sia.. cos he is a play boy and he tell me he has 2 girlfriend now.. before that he got 4!!.. omg i really admire him lolx.. pro guy =x.. but well although he tell me alot of stuffs but i feel like still very hard leh.. but got many stuffs that he said made alot of sense to me lor.. aniway i dun dare to ask la.. cos i already very xia suay infront of him liao.. he say i cfm have alot gf.. i say i only got 1 serious ex not counting those short relationships.. then he was like "wtf?".. he say i got the looks dunno how to use.. then i was like "wtf?" i got the looks meh? i dun think so.. cos if i really got the looks then good liao nor..

after lab me, tat guy pei a classmate go MeL cos her laptop got problem so she wana check out at the service center.. so we wait for her lor.. she took like 20-30mins sia.. then in the end we all never go for ESD Tutorial class.. cos already abt 30mins late.. die die... i actually wanted to go.. but well in the end pei them =x.. die le lor + this time i already never go for 4 times le .. !! faint.. i tell them later i tio debarred ar.. then they say wont de lar.. then the guy say he pontank more then me also nv tio.. well i can only hope its like wat he said lor.. >.<...

aniway after tat yea went to canteen until 12pm.. then come home lor.. cos my next class at 3pm leh.. sucks.. 3 - 5pm.. then 5:15pm got DAD lab test.. till 6:15pm.. then after tat i have to go home eat dinner, bath and prepare to go Music Underground to attend jie ru mei birthday party.. sian hor so rush ><.. hais..

kks i end here le lor.. maybe 2morrow then write about wat happened to the rest of today...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:31 PM

wa peng someone say i lazy never write today de post.. lol... kns.. hmm nothin to write mar..! grrr.. aniway i write when i freee lor now i tired le la after writing today (thurs) de post... sian nehhs.. when i free update this.......

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:51 PM

sighx.. today is so sian nor.. 6 hours of lecture in school.. yawnxx.. in the dam lecture hall.. so cold lor after sitting in there for so long.. listen to lecturer.. hais.. kinda no mood.. keep day dreaming.. never pay attention in lecture today.. sighx..

next week study break le.. then 2 weeks later common test liaos.. sighx.. gona start revising soon.. now i think of thursday i sian le.. cos of the stupid embedded system design module.. got to see that freak lab teacher.. he cfm kb me.. arhh.. kns...

sighx.. faster get over this week!!.. sighzzz..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
7:02 PM

sianx.. today nothin much.. woke up in the morning feeling so dam tired.. duno why.. hate my bed.. arhh.. duno isit my bed or wat.. kns always cant sleep well.. fck loh haix!..

go sch.. also late kns.. then the lab teacher nag at me lor.. sian!.. hear liao ji tao feel dulan.. and vexed.. say later fail etc blah blah.. all the shit sighs.. this semester i really dono wat i doing sia.. am i more hardworkin or more slack sia.. i feeling more and more meaningless each day.. although i try to be positive nowadays.. but i still can feel the effects of depression in me.. it just wouldnt let me free.. maybe cos my life still has alot of problematic stuffs.. sighx..

actualli i havent been thinkin about the word "love" for a very long time.. since the last time i got badly hurt in it.. i swear to myself many times that i wont fall for another girl again.. but in between there was afew time i fall in love with someone.. mostly love at first sight / crushes.. but well all is one sided love.. fck love i say.. love suck!.. but seriously life without love is meaningless.. now i know why those guys that flirt can be so happy.. -.-.. becos they can get love from all the girls they flirt with.. but they nv do their part in the relationship and just keep letting the girl to give in to them and love them.. seriously i envy those guys that flirt.. i envy them becos they can do wat i can never do in my life and being loved by the girls around them.. sighz.. i sometimes hate myself for being a decent guy.. why cant i be like those guy that flirt.. sighz..

without love.. each day is just another sick day and it makes me ask myself "why the hack am i living in this world?".. sigh.. but my body had already started to reject girls and had the fear towards them in some sense.. and resulting in a shy character?.. is this the reason?.. seriously i myself dont even understand myself.. sighz..

wat kinda girl i like?.. seriously long time ago.. i hate a picture of a ideal girl friend.. in my mind.. becos i am a devoted guy and also affected by the characteristic of a virgo person.. i most of the time demand perfection.. which makes me kinda picky and choosy in many things that i do.. including choosing a gf i will say.. but onces i fall in love with a girl i will love her till i go mad.. and seriously i will be with her till we get married.. thats the mindset i had for relationships.. i wont anyhow find a girl and fuck around then ditch her.. seriously i dont think i went stead with a girl and ditch her before.. thats also why i dont anyhow accept girls.. if i feel that i dont feel alot for her i wont accept her love.. even if i have a little feelings for her i wont risk accepting her.. becos i dont believe the saying that feelings will grow as day pass.. for me.. i believe in the feeling i feel for her in the start and the kind of feeling i already had for her.. the kind of feeling that u will miss this person so dam much if u cant see her.. and u feel that the reason that keeps u alive and make u live for each day is her.. this kind of feeling i only had once.. a very very strong one.. which is the first girl i seriously fall in love with.. in secondary sch.. but i dont noe why she dont like me.. sighz.. i love her in my whole sec school life.. and it is also cos of her that my whole life is changed... sigh.. 4years of hurt.. who can understand that kinda torment.. i already forgotten how much my tears flow for her and how many times i feel like dying.. sigh.. after that i really kinda had phobia for alot of things.. its also one of the reason why i hate talkin on the phone...

sighz.. duno why today feel so emotional.. im afraid my depression will haunt me back.. then i really will be mia again.. sighz.. feeling kinda low lately....

aniway i wana write down some of the facts i see in girls.. and wat is my ideal girl..

- nice figure
u might say wa typical guy.. yea but i dont really demand alot on this.. as long as its slim im cool with it.. dont have to be super hour glass.. i dont like too thin girls as well.. i like abit of chubby kinda esp on the cheek.. reason i dont like fat girls is i dont like people to give that kinda look when i go out with her.. and im so thin lor.. u imagine a fat girl with a thin guy.. wat that gona look?.. seriously i dont like people to talk shit about me and my gf.. so i prefer slim girls..

- facial appearance
hmm.. i like good complexion girls.. it will make u enjoy kissing her.. hm ok lar i think i likdat say kinda bad to those with bad complexion but come on man this is a fact for me.. well most guys will love a chio bu.. well i also.. but i not so greedy cos i also nt so yandao to deserve a chio bu also.. as long as she dont make me puke when i see her shd be ok.. and well not to forget the eyes! =P i love big eyes that can shock u on sight! hahahas

- hair
long striaght hair.. but not too striaght until like fake lor.. long hair then more like woman ma.. more sexy.. and hor hair must smell nice.. and touch le will feel very shiok that kind..

- skin
erm.. alittle bit dark i dont like too white de..

-- characteristics--
- cute
- funny
- reasonable ( very important )
- understanding ( very important )
- caring
- cheerful
- sweet
- outgoing
- romantic ( eh nt only guys shd be romantic k )
- talkative ( not over talkative )
- wild and horny at the right time
- know how to teh
- not too innocent ( must noe how to scold cb haha! )
- gentle ( very gentle to me but hard to others :D )
- not too xiao qi
- not too naggy ( nag can be a form of care but over doing it is irritating!! )
- not over sensitive ( i hate those easy jeolous type of girls! girls u all imagine ur bf super sensitive de.. tell me if u will like it )

- dressing
seriously i dont really noe much about girls clothing but well.. i like those that dress sexy de.. yea.. but of cos not over sexy until like prostitude or wat la.. ermm.. aiyar dont noe how to describe.. aniway i think as long as she know wat to wear for wat occasion i think its fine.. em last time i use to like ah lians for wat they wear.. i just like how ah lians dress themslves sometimes..

- breast
wah i think i sound gay to talk about even this.. but yea i just saying wat is my ideal girl friend la.. ermm tits shd be quite big i would say.. maybe size B?.. aiya duno much about the sizes also but just average size lor.. but deffinitely NOT TOO big!.. and most important is firm and nice de lar.. i dont like too soft and saggy de tats all i can say.. else i feel like im a pervert kns..

ok lar when i think of more i will add on.. hmm reason why i talk abt all these shit is cos i wana remind myself when i read my blog... so i will still remember wat kind of girl is my taste and type de..

ok lar i stop here.. for now... might update this post in time to come..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
9:15 PM

hmms... yesturday chiong mu as usual.. was one of the best clubbing days since i came back from mia.. fun as in i really enjoy dancing that night.. maybe cos of the graveyard? drink liao felt quite high..

well.. actually in the start i kinda angry.. becos elmo and feng like want to go then dun wan to go de.. startin all say liao go mu.. then i go prepare liao.. then when i go out.. feng stil ask me where i go.. then i tell her mu lor.. then she reply me somethin that i read liao got quite pissed..

sometimes i hate it when its common sense that we all go mu always meet at mu outside de ma.. but i duno why always everyone keep asking and asking wat time meet etc etc.. they shd noe the usual routine which is meet outside mu or at the mu carpark the steps there before 10pm if possible.. sigh all i can say is everyone is unorganized.. this happens always when there is no leader.. last time when shiny jie go mu.. she always organize until very good de.. sighs..

aniway.. i was very angry.. but in the end feng came while elmo didnt.. kns he also one of the first to say go out go out de.. then in the end nv.. pro.. aniway i not so xiao qi.. so after awhile i just treat it as nothing happened.. and forget abt it and continue with the night with feng, canto and some others..

sheena was in mu.. lol im surprised.. first time see her clubbing.. aniway she wasnt feeling good.. so she left early.. she nv tell me why but i guess maybe is her friends?.. i also duno hais...

selene was in mu.. lolz.. well i never notice her and i also nv really go find her cos im with my frens as well ma.. but well in the end i still managed to see her cos she sms me tell me she infront of me then i notice lolx!.. i pajiao de lar.. aniway yea she was with her frens as well so i also nv went to talk to her etc.. kinda paiseh lor..

then later on version came sia.. hm first time i see him in mu.. haha.. he still treat us drink.. so nice of him..

in the end i dance until 5am then we go 7 -11 slack lor.. actually wana wait till 6am.. but version friend wana go le.. so we abt 5:30am likedat we take cab go le.. i took with version fren cos he stay at cck while version took with feng.. yeaps..

haiss ok end here lar.. tired to recall wat happen and type it all out le..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:27 PM

wow.. so sian.. finally friday.. sch really sucks.. aniway im was quite surprised that i saw a girl in mu last saturday.. then this week a girl added me on friendster.. then i was having the kind of feeling that she's very familiar.. then ysturday we chat on msn.. then i realized that shes was the girl in mu.. omg?.. so qiao right?.. i really cant believe it sia... like some drama show likedat.. first time i encounter such miracle.. hmm we chatted quite alot and i found out that she also similar to me in some ways.. also a victim of love.. haix.. im surprised that she isnt a virgo.. if she was then it adds on to my believe that virgo is really the worst sad case star sign.. haiz..

aniway.. this week kinda passed pretty fast.. hmm finally my IS Social Psychology class ended.. dont have to go to school on wednesday anymore.. kekes.. but well now have to stress about ESD.. really my biggest nightmare this semester.. goodness man!.. the module suck and the lecturer suck even more big time.. this make thursday the most hated day of each week.. grrr!..

sighx.. next friday 16th Dec is jue ru mei and lynnz birthday.. faintz.. must think about wat present to buy liao *headache* haiiss.. then somemore next fri got a friend's chalet.. and he ask me to go.. wahh.. so busy sia.. dont know how to plan it out.. haiix.. maybe cant go for the chalet bahs.. else really very stress sia so many things need to do.. not even including my school work -.-"... sian sian..

today going out.. tomorrow going out.. sunday only day to rest.. wa.. hais.. and also i want to plan sometime to play my game wor.. wana level up my monk ><.. lvl88 only.. wana reach 99 asap.. so can become Champion.. :x.. haiss..

kk i stop here liao.. i go meet wei xiang awhile ask he wana pass me money to renew his ragnarokonline account..

sayonara!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
6:14 PM