its 12AM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING! <3

hope this year going to be better for you.. and i hope so xD.. cause now u've got me! if u're not happier means somethings wrong le lols..

hope you enjoyed urself earlier on.. and yea dont worry tonight i will accompany you dance de.. although i dont really like to go that place.. but for you its okay =) huggs..

take good care of yourself my darling!

love you lots..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:03 AM

just came back awhile..

darling's mum sent me home omg... all the way from her house area..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:57 PM

just wakeup.. hmm had a bad dream.. now feeling so hot.. like gona have fever likdat.. ahs so scary..

tonite gona meet up with darling's friend le.. hope everything goes well :o

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:48 AM

darling just went home awhile ago..

shes just so sweet.. brought me dinner and some stuffs..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
12:32 AM

hmm now slacking infront of my pc.. while darling having dinner with ling.. sadly i couldnt meet her tonight.. cos my right arm hurts and i was sleeping until near 7pm..

duno why im so tired.. maybe cos of the NS medicial checkup.. after taking out 1 tube of blood.. Arghs.. really gross..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
7:39 PM

well well now on my bed msning with darling..

so well at the same time blogging..

sighs later at 9am.. have to go for my NS checkup liao.. sian..

ok talk about earlier on actually i didnt expect darling to come.. becos she slept at around 6:30am.. and she said shes coming to visit me in the early afternoon.. i didnt really believe it.. cos i noe she normally wakes up in the late noon if she sleep at that timing..

but wow.. darling manage to wake up..

infact she came my hse at around 2+pm.. wow..

she took bus all the way here.. and darling gave me a surprise.. she dun wan to tell me when she reached the bus stop and she actually walked to my house alone.. this is the first time.. cause i always so fetch her.. ahh then when she call me she ask me to open the gate then i was shocked.. lol.. when i saw her i was so happy! =)

darling brought medicine, thermometer (her own one), own made porriage and honey! ahh so sweet! i was so touched.. and omg her porriage rocks!!.. woo!!.. and she fed me :o..

after that we slacked and chatted.. it was nice and loving as usual..

time flies soon it was near 7pm.. then we went for dinner.. darling actually was afraid to join.. but i pulled her along hee.. cause my family dont mind her joining =P.. we had seafood for dinner.. forgot the restaurant name.. think it was punggol seafood.. aniway it was pretty delicious =)..

when we got home it was already 9pm.. ahh.. darling and i continue our slacking till around 11+pm before i send darling off to take cab..

okies i'll end here..

thanks darling for comin over to takecare of me.. im really happy..
hugss!!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:24 AM

well now sitting infront of my pc..

hmm just got home not long from the weekly kick boxing.. well nothing much special went on in there.. hahas..

saw darling's blog.. wow saw some of her missing entries.. im glad that she enjoyed herself last night.. she got home so late sia :x.. gosh... *jeolous* hahaha jk.. hmm dont think she can reach my house to takecare of me by early afternoon like she said hahaha cos she sleep so late wahhh... hee aniway she happy can liao and aniway im better now le.. dun wana trouble her all the way here also :( sighs..

her happiness is all that i wanna wish for..

hmm but she mentioned that shes alittle upset in her latest blog entry.. hmm i wonder wat isit thats making her upset last night.. =x..

aniway im glad my fever ish gone when i woke up this morning!.. last night was feeling so sick.. had fever playing lan half way with the guys (benjamin and benson).. sighs.. maybe due to the radiations from the computer and the noisy environment?.. no idea..

well now i'll talk about yesterday..

i was very pissed like i mentioned in my earlier entry.. due to those tags.. really so pissed off until i cant feel myself being tired or sick.. though before that i was feeling half dead..

then i went town with benjamin and benson since they wana go town as well cause i've not been meeting up with them for awhile already..

we went to forum first as theres where im meeting her to return the book.. after i meet her i pass her the book right away.. and she passed me candles and a small bag where she bought oversea.. she said she bought a gun figure for me.. but she broke one of the parts so cant give me already.. hmm.. somehow that moment she made me felt like im the one being mean..

aniway within 1min we parted.. cause she got to go and i also got to go off as benjamin and benson waiting..

after that we walk around in forum for awhile.. looking for a place to eat for lunch.. but sadly nothing much.. end up we walked to wheel lock place and had lunch at NYDC.. the food there was pretty good.. each of us spent 20$ for our meal.. i've got my creamy spag as usual.. while they got themselves some baked cheese pasta/rice.. woot looks really great! next time i can try it hehe..

after that we went to P.S as they wanted to watch TMNT.. but holy crap man when we reach P.S its flooded!! somemore outside P.S theres some Cheer leading competition going on.. hmm i wonder if Ngee Ann's Magnum Force is there too..

aniway as expected of cheer leaders.. all the girls in sexy outfits lol.. bahh watever lol we just squeeze our way into P.S and head for the top.. but gosh the lift is packed.. we waited for awhile and bah give up.. decided to take the long way up.. whole P.S was crowded inside out.. Arghss.. hate it.. esp when im not feeling well...

most saddening was.. when we reached the cinema level.. we saw all the timing for TMNT sold out..!! then we went to Cathay.. omg lor same shit.. left only 9+pm shows.. ahh then we walked around cathay for awhile.. thinking of plans.. then they wanted to play lan.. so we went to parklane to check it out...

but gosh lor! when we reach there.. EVERY single lanshop is FULL! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?? so MANY lanshops in parklane.. and EVERY one is FULL.. i was like WTF and sian 1/2 already... and i wasnt feeling well so my mood kinda dampens... was irritated...

finally we bth liao so sat down at one of the shop in parklane for some refreshment.. the most irritating thing was.. everywhere was kids.. like aging 14 - 18 yr old.. and we hardly see any people around our age.. as if we're aliens likdat omg lor.. then the guys told me now its their holidays then i realise..

after awhile we took cab from parklane to westmall.. our last hope.. and we're glad that theres slot for TMNT at 7:40pm.. it was still early so we went around slacking abit.. went to archade played lost world.. haha damned benjamin and i got owned.. but it reminds me of the old days.. back in early sec sch where we love to play lost world.. forgotten if we got complete it anot.. aniway the one at west mall kinda sucked.. cos the gun abit cock lor.. so we got owned pretty early hahah sians..

then later on benjamin and benson played a damned funny game hahaha.. also shooting one.. but its dam funny.. then everyone was looking at them playing.. lol bth we keep laughing.. cos the game really like a comedy show.. lmao...

after that we slack abit more in the arcade then went in for the movie liaos...

hmmm the movie was so so i would say.. lacking in some serious actions.. but overall still ok i would say.. movie end at 9+pm.. we're still not feeling hungry.. then they wanted to go play lan at I.R.C @ bukit timah shopping centre so i went with them..

played battle field 2142 and battle field 2.. ah.. very long nv play those kinda games so i really sucked like shit.. and unable to join the same team with them due to the stupid auto team balance really irritates me... and i was feeling so cold ever since i was in the cinema @ westmall.. finally at ard 10+pm i feel my head is burning.. at tat point i really got no mood to continue playing liao.. so just anyhow play the game.. until i bth i quit the game.. so i just watch benjamin and benson playing..

then ard 11+pm they stopped playing.. and wow we realized its raining... ARGHS! really a bad day for me.. so we got no choice.. walked in the rain..

we went opposite beauty world for some supper.. i had wanton noodle.. i ordered DRY one.. but they gave me WET one.. dots.. then benjamin help me change it..

rest there abit before we took cab home... i got home at around 12+am.. ahh finally.. faster went for a hot bath...

after tat faster go drink alot of warm water and i open my room's windows and smsed darling.. lol wonder how much we've been smsing.. the guys say that im hardcore.. keep smsing lol! so funny.. aniway they ah.. as usual keep suaning me.... lol bth..

aniway i fell asleep on my bed at around 1am... =x

okies i'll end here..
byee

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:46 AM

im really very pissed off with wats on my tag previously.. until i deleted it.. i was sick.. but now im so angry until i cant feel my sickness already........

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:41 AM

hmm now im on my bed msning with darling.. sighs stupid connection keep dcing..

aniway darling came my hse just now for dinner.. and she accompany me until almost 11pm.. then she went to meet her mum at grandma house.. sighs so sad that the sushi at bukit timah plaza is gone.. due to some renovation or watever.. haiss =( so cant buy any for darling... but at least we manage to buy the bread.. it indeed tasted pretty good.. hee.. =P

i was having headache and slight dizziness earlier on.. duno why.. aniway thanks darling for being soooooo concerned about me and even make me eat her panadol.. darling u're really the best girl!.. love u so much!.. thanks for everything.. im really so happy to have you by my side..

miss darling so much!.. smelling her jacket that she left behind on wednesday! awww smell so nice lor and it makes me feel as if shes right beside me! i know i sound abit sicko but gosh i really miss her smell and her everything!..

forever loving you!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:20 AM

darling ending her work ler.. today cant go fetch her cos i feeling kinda uncomfortable.. feeling alittle sick..

must be due to improper sleeping.. aniway darling coming to visit me.. aw so sweet.. we suppose to meet up with her friend mel and mel's bf at p.s.. but becos of me darling decide not to meet them ler.. feel so bad..

darling gona take bus from jp to my hse.. hope she dont fall asleep on the bus :(.. later going to bring her go buy sushi and her favourite bread..

hees.. since she got a big craving for sushi and bread now.. =) but dar u better drink more water ahhh.. else i heart pain.. see u cough again...

okies i'll end here for now...

miss u lots darling~

- i hate cold blooded girls *
5:04 PM

sighs i missed project again.. arghs.. too tired to go.. didnt had a good sleep last night... sighs hate myself.. so pig.. -.-" i wonder how am i going to motivate myself to complete the project!.. starting to feel the stress...

i hate doing my project now becos.. last sem i work like crap for the project and i was only given a B+.. while the other project students whom did average work only and in a group of 3.. get almost the same as me.. B.. while im working alone somemore.. wtf sia.. so angry lor.. haiss...

now im required to modify the last 2 kit sets that i've done.. which have a total of 24 sets.. zZz.. and still i have to start working on the new project given to me.. image processing on breast cancer.. Arghs!..



dar went home at ard 1+am.. then i was talking to her on the phone until she got home..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:33 PM

*belated post*
written on 22th.


well today finally went back to sch with dar calling me and making sure i go.. lols..

i went to sch and ah almost forgot that theres a course i need to attend.. then faster went to blk 53..

the course was dam boring..

saw dar slacking spot..

went to meet dar at her sch..

went to eat pasta..

went to imm..

saw tiffany..

went home...

it was a great but tiring night

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:11 PM

ahhs.. today i nv go sch again lol shit! i wokeup at 3pm+ lols cause mum came and scold again hahas.. say i nv wakeup to eat... lols.. pengs..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:17 PM

Friendster Horoscope for March 19, 2007
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

The Bottom Line
Don't worry if you're unsure about your purpose in life. That's normal. Stay loose.

In Detail
Don't worry if you are unsure about your purpose in life. Join the club! Most people who claim to have figured out their entire life's path are fooling themselves. You don't necessarily have to have an answer to the question 'What do you want to do with your life?' What's important is that you are open to anything -- and ready to put forth all the effort necessary to make something happen when it can.

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wow.. so true.. thats wat i've been thinking about.. my purpose... my future....

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:44 PM

sighs..

suddenly just feel so ..... dull? or lost?...

maybe cos of a bad morning.. and neverending disconnections from the internet which i cant figure out why and whats causing the disconnections.. it really irritates me everyday.. especially when i talking to darling on msn and webcam...

so angry until i feel like throwing the router away.. really lor! haiss.. if im not talking to darling its ok.. i cant be bothered.. but it happens all the time.. and its like so frequent.. every 10mins or more will dc onces.. and i have to go reset the cable modem and router downstair..

it just make me nuts.. the kind of feeling is so angry can.. not to mention how much i cherish every second chatting with darling.. especially webcam.. everytime i get dced half way through our sweet conversations the feeling is really very uncomfortable...

sighs..

i guess i shdnt try to joke or lame.. cause i suck at it.... twice i have opposite results from darling.. hais...

mum just came and nag at me again.. wtf is wrong with her today!.. keep nagging at me not giving me any peace!.. feel so crazy insane now until like im going to explode...

ah and wtf.. an ant just bit me.. -.-" dots....

sighs this morning mum also tell me this year is bad luck for 'Tigers'.. and she went to the temple and got some stuffs for me.. saying it will help to remove the bad luck...

i really dont wish the bad luck to be true.. for onces im afraid and being real superstitious.. because this year i've met my dream girl.. and if this bad luck is going to affect our relationship.. im sure i cant take it..

for onces.. i truly understand the meaning of love is blind.. i've been blinded by love.. so much that im afraid of doing things i know isnt right.. like overly concern/ miss/ love my girl.. i dont want to turn into a irritating boyfriend when what i wanted was just to be a sweet and loving boyfriend to her.. being there for her and just right for everything... but this deep love seem to be growing so fast that its starting to form a life of its own in my heart and mind... im really sucked into it...

sighs ok i got to go prepare soon.. 3:11pm already.. im going to meet darling at boon lay when she finish her work at 5pm.. if i dont hurry im going to be late.. sighs...

Loving you so much darling..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
2:53 PM

sighs mood isnt very good now.. so irritated by my mum! cant give me peace for the whole morning!.. ever since 8+ she been screaming at me.. when she out till she came back.. keep nagging and stuffs omg!!! AH!! so irritated can.. i sooo tired want to get a proper sleep then onces i fall back into sleep she come screaming in my room... wake me up from my dreams.. Arghs! i hate to be disturbed when im super tired.. just irrtates me!

arghhss make me now still feel so restless.. didnt even have a good rest.. and the weather so humid ahh! angry!!!!....

sighs and darling's msn seem to have some problem.. cause i think she using some other msn version at her workplace.. i talk to her but she cant see my messages i guess.. hais..

miss her so much.. =(

signing off..
irritated mood...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:27 PM

darling sleep ler.. she gt to wake up at 6am.. first day of her attachment later.. for 5 months.. sob.. so we wont have much time to meet up lerhs.. but its ok.. cos we know we both miss and love each other in our hearts..

although the misses will be a killer for me.. but i still got to learn to live with it..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
2:09 AM

ahh just wokeup awhile ago for dinner.. went for a nap just now during evening..

got up at 9am today for my kick boxing class.. bahhs.. so tired really.. having arms and leg aches.. thanks to the stupid MRT ride.. i took the wrong line and from 10+ stops.. i end up taking 20+ stops from bukit batok to marina bay -.-" dotss.. and i was standing throughout the journey which took about 1hr+..

sighs.. darling suppose to come my hse today.. but end up never.. sighs alittle sad.. but its ok.. cause im more worried about her.. she had fell sick.. ahh!.. and worst of all i cannot go her house to take care of her.. due to her mum... arghhs.. i feel so ZZzzZzz.. heartache!...

hais.. shes everything to me.. i really cant lose her.. and the sight of her suffering really hurts me badly.. i really wish to be there for her every second.. hold her in my arms and make sure shes protected.. even if i have to sacrifise myself to protect her i will still do it..

sighs.. sorry darling.. made u drink the beer for me yesterday.. shdnt had let u drank for me =(.. then u wont be suffering now.. sighs...

i promise you i will quit drinking.. like how i quit smoking for you.. from the day i know you till now i've not smoked at all.. quitting smoking is easy for me cos im not addicted.. but to quit drinking that would be a little hard.. as i always like to drink to numb myself of all misery and worries.. i know im just avoiding reality for that moment.. sighs.. but the feeling of high is good..

but since darling u dont like it.. i will try my best to stop drinking as well..

huggss...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:52 PM

just came back from ripples.. (Rush)..

went there with darling, jace and alex.. hahaha cos darling want to dance so i pei her go =).. it was fun i would say but crowded and no stage thats the down part for me.. sighs.. and im glad theres no fights today..

the music was great! cos it was the dj from MU! =) *cheers* he's really good =).. but dj roy and jason is of cos better lah lols.. but so long nv hear them ler..

aniway the Steamboat outing was quite a success.. im pretty glad.. =)..

A Big thank to everyone that've made the effort in turning up and keeping to their promises =) im really happy =).. thanks alot!..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:52 AM

finally finish preparing.. im going off now.. be early rather then late...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:23 PM

sighs.. just wakeup not long ago..

saw darling's sms.. about

ate my breakfast + lunch.. and went to iRC to confirm the outing with the rest..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:23 PM

darling at work place ler.. sighs hope everything goes well for her today.. as for me i couldnt sleep just now so was updating my blog drafts for the past few days entries..

now think i shd be able to sleep liaos bah.. my heart feeling better le.. k better sleep cos later still have to go marina bay to check out the steamboat..

nites..
missing you darling!
muacks!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:50 AM

finally!! after worrying and calling my darling throughout the whole night my phone rang at 7:13am with darling name on it..

at this moment im really so happy..

i faster pick up the call and ask her wat happened.. then she said sorry as she fell asleep infront of her computer without knowing and her hp was on silent...

awww its ok my darling dont have to say sorry really.. i just feel so worried for u my silly darling..

haiss she always never takecare of herself.. yesterday night so tired already yet still cook for me and accompany me until so late at her house...

darling aww!!!..

sighs and sleeping infront of the pc.. darling ur whole body must be feeling aches and didnt have a good sleep :(.. sobb..

sighs.. my heart still haven peace down.. really gone crazy ever since u disappeared.. thinking what happened to u etc.. but im glad non of the bad thoughts came true.. *thank god*

but i was having this strong feeling when i was worrying about u, that if anything really bad happened to u.. and if the worst happened.. i also dont wish to carry on with my life ler.. life without u is meaningless.. u're the only girl that brought true happiness and true love into my life... im really sooooo afraid of losing you darling... really....

every pain and suffering u encounter i feel it for u a million times more.. my heart felt like its being stabbed whenever im worrying about u.. u're simply so important to me! u're the only girl i want! and trust me if i've the power to start a family now i will want to marry you striaght away and spend the entire rest of my life with u and only u! im serious darling..

sighs kay i will try to go sleep now..

darling takecare at work later.. hope u can reach on time wor as u say u got to reach by 8am :(..

i miss you! and love you so much!!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
7:19 AM

its already 6:55am..

and still no response from darling..

her msn is still online.. sighs... im really so worried until i cant sleep... sob.. worried until my eyes filled with tears.. im just so scared that something bad had happened to my darling..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
6:55 AM

ahh!! im so worried now!! my darling is missing!!

after i came home i tried to login msn to find darling.. but stupid msn got problem!! i rebooted and tried alot of times before i can finally go in.. but when i login at 1:44am darling didnt reply my msg.. but the last sms she sent me was at 1:38am!..

and its 3:30am now! almost 2hours and darling hasnt yet reply me any sms or reply me on msn.. im so worried!! cause she just disappeared out of a sudden but her msn is still online!! and im sure she will at least sms/call me and let me know if shes going to sleep.. cause thats what she'll normally do..

my mind just runs wild.. wondering wat happened.. and as the clock ticks i get more and more worried! arghs!..

i really got this strong urge to take cab and go find her right now.. but im scare of her mum.. wat if darling just fell asleep? then i go knocking at her house door.. im sure her mum wont be happy.. somemore at this hour.. but wat happen if something really happened???.. ARGH!! HOW!!......

i called darling's hp alot of times and there was no response... im really extremely worried! so scare that something had happened to her.. arghhhs!...

darling what happened??! where are u!!???

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:30 AM

just came back from darling house...

today im suppose to meet darling at toa payoh de.. but darling ended work early so she went home first.. so decided to meet her at her place..

i boarded the bus at 7pm.. and guess wat time i got off?
9pm+!.. goshh its the longest ride i ever taken.. but im not angry because its for darling.. im just shocked by the travelling time.. its almost like as if i've travelled over half of singapore..

aniway after i reached i called darling and she guided me on which bus to take and which path to walk.. and yay i managed to find darling's block.. then i called darling again when i thought im on the right level.. lol turn out i was 1 level above hahas! then when i came to the right level.. i saw darling standing at the gate.. gosh im really really so happy to see her! serious... the feeling is just so sweet and loving.. awww..

after that darling went back in the house.. and when i got in i saw her cooking omg! ahh! so thats the surprise she prepared for me.. awww... im really touched!..

while shes cooking i tried to play with her cat but ahh it keep running away.. and darling told me its afraid of guys... =(..

saw darling's room.. wow its pretty cozy and sweet.. feels good to be in her room.. i really feel so happy... and wana hug everything likdat.. i duno how to describe the feeling i had.. but if i have to.. i will say its real sweet..

darling then on her pc for me to use while she ask me to wait as she finish cooking.. i never use much but enough for me to see my photos in there and oh my god im so touched again.. especially the captions she had for them.. awww! arrhh really make me feel like im the happiest guy alive!..

when dinner's done.. i look at darling across the table and oh gosh im so touched until onces again i want to cry.. i really feel so xinfu.. a proper meal done by darling.. rice+vege+egg+chicken.. she still apologize to me saying she cant cook much cause theres nothing much availabe to buy.. arghh but wo zhen de heng gan dong..!! she actually went to buy the food to cook arhhh!! no wonder she reach home so late just now :(...

sorry darling gave u so much trouble.. and dont worry the dinner was great =) i enjoyed it.. really nice.. thanks for cooking for me darling... really thankyou!

sighs... and silly darling still dont let me help her wash up after dinner.. make me feel so bad :(...

after that we accompanied each other throughout the night.. but time is so short sighs.. and i got to go before her mum come back.. sob.. really cant bear to go..

sighs aniway left at around 12:30am.. because her mum was coming home already.. sobs..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:20 AM

aww.. darling just now came to visit me in school.. all the way from eunos.. then she left for marina square to meet her close sister for dinner.. sighs.. silly darling.. make me feel so reluctant to let her go just now... cause we only meet for less then 30mins and she got to leave already... arrghs...

and darling was having stomachache for the whole morning.. how i wish i was beside her all throughout the pain and hugging her tighly in my arms taking care of her... sighs... she told me just now that she already had this for the past 3 days.. really made me even more worried.. argh :(.. darling must takecare of urself when im not around ok.. it really hurts me to see u in pain... sobb...

now she had reached marina square ler.. while im still in project room.. arghs.. i hate projects! i cant concentrate at all.. my minds all about darling! >.< awww.... u sure drives me crazy dar! >.< sobb..

and to add on to the situation.. its going to rain heavily now! omg! bahh! noo!!.. i still wan to go home put my stuffs eat and go back find darling at marina square de... dun rain!!! its going to be a mess for me if it rains >.<.. whole body sticky and gross.. arghs dont want dar to feel a sticky yucky me...

i miss u sooo much darling!!

just want to hug u tight and never let go... =(

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:59 PM

meet darling in school at around 3+pm.. then she accompany me then came my hse for dinner and stayed till 11+pm.. then took cab home at around 12+am...

the dinner was great.. dar almost cried when she eating.. sobb..

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1:41 AM

- i hate cold blooded girls *
2:22 PM

so tired..

watched protege with darling

parapara

webcam

etc

- i hate cold blooded girls *
3:57 AM

hehes.. now im here full of thoughts..

happiness.. wondering.. curious.. scared.. and also insecurity..

but theres too much for me to elaborate and write out.. at least not now..

today's gona be a busy day.. morning had my kick boxing then later noon we going to zhenning house for a gathering before he leaves for 'india' on monday 'to visit ahsum'.. and we guys are gona miss him for quite sometime.. :x

right now i also thinkin and missing a girl..

she came into my life with a key thats managed to open up my heart onces again....

dear heavenly father, god jesus..

i know im afraid.. and onces again i stepped into my greatest fear.. love.. but please.. prove me wrong that im not fated to be hurt and rejected.. i've devoted my heart onces again.. i know that its a heavy risk im taking as i know this might be the last chance that i'm giving myself.. but all that i ever wished for is just simple happiness and true love..

please guide me to be the perfect guy for her.. i know i've many flaws and inperfections and thats the reason why im so scared and insecured..

afraid that i cant be her everything...
afraid of losing her in the end..

here i pray with tears.. hoping that this sweet dream that's just starting will last forever till eternity..

i pray in your precious name..
amen..

although we're both kinda not clear about whats ahead of us.. and even now.. but im sure about something.. my misses and feelings for you.. its so strong that you just cant stop appearing in my mind and heart..

i dont know if its a mistake to let u know how i feel about u.. so soon.. but all i know is now that i had chosen this road.. i will walk it till the very end.. unless u decide to blow up this path.. which i hope wont =(

i wont declare that im in love with you till u give me the permission to love you fully.. im so scare that i wont be perfect for you..

so scared of making you angry..
so scared of making you sad..
so scared that i cant make you happy..
so scared that i would lose you..
so scared that i cant cheer you up when u're down..
so scared that i cant be there when you need me..
so scared that i cant remember all your favourite items..
theres so much that im worried about.. =(

i miss your cuteness
i miss your smile
i miss your care
i miss your silliness
i miss your everything!

u know who u are =)..

wherever you go..
whatever you do..
my heart belongs to you..
wherever you go....

i just dont know what to do..
if its all over with you..
i would not be able to live..
i have nothing left to give..
so please dont leave me alone..
time exist to exist..
my heart would turn to stone..
remembering your kiss..

Missing you!!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:53 AM

woo.. now lying on bed blogging...

sighs today is a real tiring day.. keep dozing off on transport..

shall talk about wat happened yesturday..

well wokeup in the morning at around 7+.. thanks to von for the morning call! =P i was so touched when i found out that she stay up all the way just to call me.. awww! but yea before that we were msning with each other.. till very very late too hahahax *hides*

shes just so nice to talk with.. never fail to make me smile even on msn.. hahahas.. but i feel so shy with her.. she called me to say good night but when i hear her voice i was like erhhh... mind become blank and speechless! gosh lols...

aniway i was really tired ya.. cos sleep for afew hours only.. then i struggled out of bed.. forced myself not to go back to sleep else i will be wasting her efforts.. and i dun wana disappoint her =x.. okies.. so well eventually i managed to drag myself out..

was wondering wat to wear for pulau ubin.. so i in the end i just anyhow grab a jeans and a shirt.. and went to sch.. reach there at around 8:40am.. lucky they still there hahax! cause we're suppose to meet at 8:30am *oops*..

but wahs everyone was in shorts.. so i was like *ooh shit*.. wanted to go back change but duno wat time they leaving.. then waited till around 9am.. they still haven set off.. so i ran back home to change.. but wtf when i go back sch.. they left! i got owned!...

aniway then i took cab down.. and called derek asking if he wana join me too.. cos he was late thats why he dont wan to go.. then i ask him if he want a ride too since im taking cab down to changi village.. then he say ok..

so well after picking up derek we went striaght for the changi jetty.. but wtf we got owned by the taxi driver.. he say only 1 jetty in changi.. then he drive us to the wrong one.. wtf!.. pwned!.. we reach there then we see no people.. pengs..

lucky got another cab go there.. then we faster got on the cab and go the other jetty..

well reached there and saw them.. lols.. pengs.. total cab fare for all the journey was around 26$+

but the lecturer was being kind and he let us claim the taxi fare! wow.. really nice..

aniway after that we boarded the ferry and headed for pulau ubin..

onces there we chill abit at the coffee shop.. we are allowed to order any drinks/food.. best part is we dont have to pay a single cent.. the sch paying for us! xD so cool..

after that we rent our bikes and we went biking through the whole pulau ubin.. led by Fauzi lol..

it was fun lols.. but derek tat crazy dude lol keep cycling so slow then i have to wait for him.. he even almost got lost.. then Fauzi and i go find him.. lol.. then he also fell down 2 times gosh..

during lunch we gathered back at the coffee shop and had a meal up to 300+ $ if im not wrong.. chilli crabs etc wahh really awsome lor!.. everything the lecturers paid for us XD.. so long didnt have such things liao..

after lunch we went back to cycle again lmao... until around 3+ pm then we gather back and return the bikes and left pulau ubin..

by the time we got back school it was just nice.. around 5pm.. lol

then i went home.. slack abit.. take a bath.. lol then realized i got sunburn lol..

after tat around 7pm went to PC Bunk with cj to meet up with his maple guild friends for awhile.. then meet up with the rest of the guys to watch 300 at Cathay.. hmm its a good show.. but kinda sad cos the hero die =x..

saw xiaofeng and kelvin at the cathay too after our movie ended.. after tat i went to "Rush" to meet up with von.. cos i promised her i will accompany her de lol.. and overall its not bad.. its the first time we really meet out after knowing each other though i've already seen her in MU quite afew times..

but hmm something happened i guess.. cos i saw her tearing abit.. hais.. was kinda upset but i dont know wat to say.. somemore she had her god brother and friend with her also.. hmm but i dun like the feeling those guys giving me...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
4:06 AM

To: All project students,

As an integral part of the VPP programme, ECE has organised a teambuilding event on a trip to Pulau Ubin. This will enhance the bonding and cohesion of students and staff besides attending courses or industrial visits. Some of you may have seen the announcement in the 5PD2 MeL but it will be repeated here as the MeL could be down for maintenance over these few weeks.

Hence take note and log in the dates:

1. Teambuilding at Pulau Ubin FRIDAY 9 March

Reporting Time - 8.30 am at Canteen 2 ( besides the swimming pool ) Will return to NP by 5 pm.
Wear suitable attire. Lunch and transport will be provided. Will be back at NP by 5 pm.
Attendance is compulsory.

2. Course on Professional Preparation Programme WED 21 & THU 22 March

Venue: Blk 53 Level 4 Room 8
Time: 10 - 12 pm and 1 - 3 pm
Attendance is compulsory.

As said in the VPP briefing, do know where you are going, have the targets set and be committed and accept no excuses in order to complete the project work with diligent. Do approach the supervisors or myself if you need assistance or have any query.

regards,
YongCK
For project committee.

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:27 AM

sighs will update more when i get the time.. =(

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:12 PM

ahhhs now in project room..

sighs.. just read von's blog and made me felt even more sad that Music Underground is gone.. everyone's feeling sad actually.. especially all those close friends in #Music Underground as we've been clubbing together as a family for years.. and been through many ups and downs as well..

hais.. now that our home is gone.. its really saddening..

theres no place like Music Underground.. with the space and cosy environment.. most importantly it has a pretty big stage which i never failed to enjoy myself on whenever im dancing up there...

still remember the old times when everyone will go up there and dance as a group.. although as time goes by they prefer to dance on the dance floor or just sit down and drink but i still make sure i go up the stage..

because thats the only reason why i enjoy clubbing in MU.. the music! Dancing!!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:03 PM