just finish dinner..

aniway i think i shd start spending more time on myself and my own life.. i realize that i duno wat i am doing anymore becos im always doing and following others requirements/expectations.. how can i know wat i enjoy doing or like if i dun even give myself time to be myself?.. but nowadays it seems so hard cos when im alone i dun even noe wat to do.. its like im so used to listening and following to make others feel "good".. im like an idiot uh...

time to be a guy and live like one.. most important is find back myself.. wheres the guy that like to mess with softwares, IT stuffs, innovative ideas etc... or isit becos that time i was single?.. having some serious mental blockage.. i start to question myself alot nowadays... sighs.. aniway dont live for others.. cos one day when the person ur living for is gone.. wat would happen to you?.. u'll just regret and live a miserable life... unless u're sure that the person wont live you and will always be there to support u... till the day he/she dies...

but even so as a guy u're suppose to be a role model for ur kids.. u must be successful.. dont be a loser!!

suddenly i duno how i stand my room and desk being so messy! last time i always clean my room and desk until its dam neat hahas...

alright im going to bath! tmr is another long week in camp.. freaking duty driver on saturday some more.. haiz! this month gona suck.. but well i'll try to be positive and "enjoy" myself in camp.. will take this chance to think more abt wat i want to do...

if its wat i want to do.. and ur other part dont support.. how leh?.. i believe a life partner will have to be supportive of u no matter wat.. and help u out in all situations.. becos if such a small thing also cant do.. wat else can they do in the future for u or together?...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:41 PM

well.. well.. haha very long nv blog yeah i noe.. somehow my life has been rather off tracked for quite awhile.. nowadays book out i also dun really know wat am i doing.. cos my goal was kinda lost..

very sian.. always doing things half way without achieving the goals.. haiz.. bored.. life without goals is really meaningless..

aniway next month is diffinitely not going to be a good month for me in camp.. due to many new changes coming and wat h1n1 had brought to us.. theres going to be standby teams and stuffs.. sighs.. dam shit lah..

sick and tired as usual.. and as always.. just hope to get thru it.. well heard that our recourse might be during sept or oct.. haiz..

i feel so vexed.. come home also no peace.. so irritating...

lately i've forgotten wat real happiness and peace is already..... even the nicest feeling also felt different now...

wats going on?...

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:01 PM

woot she posted her video back.. cool lols.. the female version is quite nice also mhm..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
11:00 PM

just finish a long quarrel with dar.. insane.. ever since 2pm.. wth man.. sighs.. im tired.....

- i hate cold blooded girls *
8:09 PM

my mood is in a big stir.. fucking irritated and lack of appetitide nowadays.. sick and tired of alot of shit.. one little thing tend to spark up a nuclear bomb inside..

theres alot of things i dun understand.. but i think im getting used to them.. probably when im immuned i wont bother anymore.. but i can see that this attitude has driven me to be even more sickening then i could ever think of..

im loosing hope and interest.. without a firm support everything just seem meaningless and pointless.. im tired.. maybe this is the last time i bother to think abt doing or starting something..

maybe after ns i will be more exposed to better opportunities to excel.. maybe now is just not the right time.. maybe maybe maybe.... u know wats maybe? its just a way people tend to give themselves hope to continue their struggle for survival and doing things which they arent sure of..

im just sparked off by my mum.. fck up.. keep asking me to eat.. nagging and irritating is deffinitely not the right way to approach a person whom isnt happy..

whens the last time i really happy? totally relaxed.. without my mind keep worrying or thinking about something.. always missing,disappointed,irritated,frustrated,worried bla bla bla... can i have a new cycle? how i wish i can go on a holiday.. with a good mate but sadly i dun think it can be done anytime soon.. chances always come at the wrong time.. i duno if i shd blame fate or human error..

im so fucked that i wish i can just sell my soul to something so i couldnt care and i dont have to.. perhaps sell it to army eh?.. be a servant and just listen to orders... give ur 100% into something fixed.. fucked up! i always hope that would be the last option..

slapping myself cant get it out of this state of irritation.. tmr im just going to stay in bed and rot.. i give up already.. wat for bother to think about plans and shit.. it became a task and i dun even noe wat im doing isit wat i want? but seriously i start wondering wat am i doing.. everyday i wakeup.. wat am i doing? wat for? and why?..

nvm.. i'll stop.. i think this wont get anymore sense if i continue.. i need to cool down..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:27 PM

Happy 2yr 3mths darling~
u piggie forget again hahas!..
2nd time ler if im nt wrong! hahahs..
piggie!

- i hate cold blooded girls *
1:55 AM

i just realize koreans are good at dancing o.o







and you realise they like to have cute catchy moves.. but pretty impressive.. i like their dance step really cute

- i hate cold blooded girls *
10:22 AM

lols.. funny yet lame at the sametime lol.. i do respect them for doing and editting thier own video cos its really not as simple as it looked.. good job :)

theres alot of other videos, and some people really give nasty comments lols..





i find this 2nd video funny and pretty well done.. the timing and angle in the video quite well.. and their moves are pretty creative and funny hahas..

Black dress with the tights underneath,
I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth,
And shes an actress (actress),
But she ain't got no need.
Shes got money from her parents in a trust fund back east.
T-t-t-tongues always pressed to your cheeks,
While my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth,
T-tell your boyfriend if he says hes got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho, (cause a ho)
Won't trust me.(whole part x2)

X's on the back of your hands,
Wash them in the bathroom to drink like the bands.
And your setlist (setlist),
You stole off the stage,
Had red and purple lipstick all over the page.
B-b-b-bruises cover your arms,
Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm.
And the best is (best is),
No one knows who you are,
Just another girl alone at the bar.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho, (cause a ho)
Won't trust me.(whole part x2)

Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips...

Woah, woah, woah, Woah, woah, oh, oh, Woah, woah, woah

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho, (cause a ho)
Won't trust me.(whole part x2)

- i hate cold blooded girls *
9:57 AM