hm never expect i will be feeling this again...

hais..

2 words..

心痛。。

心如刀割。。

i duno if it will ever heal and how im gona face the aftermath of wats coming.. the only person i can blame is myself.. why believe? why fall into this pit again when i sworn before to never repeat this again..

im learning from my mistakes again.. this is how people grow...

i'll be a better human.. i know u'll never regret becos i think long ago u've chosen this ending but im so stupid to never see it coming and preventing it from happening..

i can only hope now...
for a miracle to happen...
but i know these hopes are only there to reduce the pain.. they'll not come true..

how i really wish this is all just a bad dream at least i can slap myself up and everything will still be the way it was....

i duno how to make myself better.. trying not to think but the pain cant be removed.. i know when the mental barrier wears out the pain will be doubled or more..

takecare my love :(

- i hate cold blooded girls *
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