Sunday, June 28, 2009
just finish dinner..
aniway i think i shd start spending more time on myself and my own life.. i realize that i duno wat i am doing anymore becos im always doing and following others requirements/expectations.. how can i know wat i enjoy doing or like if i dun even give myself time to be myself?.. but nowadays it seems so hard cos when im alone i dun even noe wat to do.. its like im so used to listening and following to make others feel "good".. im like an idiot uh...
time to be a guy and live like one.. most important is find back myself.. wheres the guy that like to mess with softwares, IT stuffs, innovative ideas etc... or isit becos that time i was single?.. having some serious mental blockage.. i start to question myself alot nowadays... sighs.. aniway dont live for others.. cos one day when the person ur living for is gone.. wat would happen to you?.. u'll just regret and live a miserable life... unless u're sure that the person wont live you and will always be there to support u... till the day he/she dies...
but even so as a guy u're suppose to be a role model for ur kids.. u must be successful.. dont be a loser!!
suddenly i duno how i stand my room and desk being so messy! last time i always clean my room and desk until its dam neat hahas...
alright im going to bath! tmr is another long week in camp.. freaking duty driver on saturday some more.. haiz! this month gona suck.. but well i'll try to be positive and "enjoy" myself in camp.. will take this chance to think more abt wat i want to do...
if its wat i want to do.. and ur other part dont support.. how leh?.. i believe a life partner will have to be supportive of u no matter wat.. and help u out in all situations.. becos if such a small thing also cant do.. wat else can they do in the future for u or together?...
