Sunday, May 25, 2008
sighs.. this week was awfully hard to get through.. after the long weekend last week it really felt like im back to the day i first enlisted... its so painful and miserable.. miss darling alot and was not motivated at all when i was in camp.. and when im alone and free i just dazed and think of the time i had with darling.. everyday night i just wana sleep early so that the days can pass sooner..
sighs.. this week onwards going to be tougher with more training and events on the que..
well time flies its evening again.. im was on msn and talking to zn about NS stuffs.. lol.. they're going to ORD le! so good lol.. i still have a long way to walk..
this is life lols.. anyway.. its another short weekend.. but at least i still get to meet up with darling.. lol.. i should start learning to be sastified easily i guess? *look around*.. i always nag that the weekend is too short blah blahs.. if i dun start to learn i will be nagging all the way till i ord =x bahss..
what if one day i become immune, heartless and dont feel anything anymore?.. if that happens.. that wouldnt be me ler...
i've seen alot of things during these months in NS.. seen alot of different guys and proves to me again how nasty and evil people can get/be.. the strong bully the weak blah blah.. its always like that..
im not surprised.. becos all these were wat i see in life.. it just made me feel that my senses and views were right most of the time.. i hope i can see some exceptions sometimes.. those are the real surprises... haiz..
so well.. yst i met up with baby.. then we had the usual weekend feast.. feast on watever thing we can grab lol.. insane.. then we watched movie and spent time together... almost felt like im back to the life i used to have with her before i enlist.. but i know i have to face reality...
darling had to work.. so we had to say goodbye shortly after we woke up today.. sighs.. another cycle of seperation.. everything was as normal.. then i had to do abit of admin work for my mum.. i normally hate to do things on weekend after being slaved and pushed around for the entire time in the army..
aniway hugs.. takecare my love.. the path ahead of u isnt going to be alone with me by your side.. i may not be the best at times but my love for you will always be true and warm.... at times i guess we both couldnt understand each other due to our individual problems in life.. but im sure we will improve over time...
thanks for everything once again baby.. i really appreciate and cherish all the time i have with you.. i hope u can see and feel my love too... not just through these words but physically and mentally too...
thanks for the peach drink,the snacks, booking the movie and also the maple session.. it was fun.. all i can be upset is that time wasnt kind enough.. congrats on lv62 darling.. im still hoping to see you priest since the last time i said so but take ur time im not like before le...
maybe we'll be able to get all the anniv items before it ends o.O lol!.. hugss..
muacks.. jiayou darling..! i hope i can be there for your graduation next friday! if i cant make it.. please must remember to take many many photos ok? i want to see u on the stage.. best if u can take video hee.. so i can see everything..
hugs!.. im so proud of u my love!.. u worked so hard for your course!.. muacks!.. i cant wait for the next weekend to come! i missing you so much already darling! sighs how am i going to survive this coming week?.. i dont know how... but i have to.. cause im not giving a choice.. sighs!.. damm NS... =(
baby's so busy at work.. guess shes going to end very late tonight again.. hope she'll remember to takecare of herself.. sobs.. *cuddles*
