Sunday, May 11, 2008
for the past few hrs i've been dazing and stoning..
i feel so extremely lonely nowadays... esp after baby start to work.. sighs....
very depressing today.. i think of next week i feel even more unmotivated.. i need to find back my source of strength...
i need to be stronger.. i cannot be so weak! i cannot give in to the darkness.. the line between darkness and light is just a step away.. i need to be the person i use to be..! outgoing, crazy, wild and wtf else that i used to be..
im just someone who's unmotivated, lifeless, aimless, living in solitude blah blah blah... i can name alot of negative points and see no positive points which i can use to redeem myself..
although i know i am just saying all these out in pure agony trying to make myself feel better.. i still holds on that one day i will change and improve.. im sure everyone around me is sick and tired of my emo-ness.. for years.. i've wanted to change.. but look where am i now? still the same personality isnt it?..
but now under harsh environment... i've to fight for my own life.. no one will lend u a hand becos this is life.. the weak will always be despised by others in the real world.. the road ahead no matter how rough it is.. it still have to be walked upon using my own pair of legs...
sighs..
加油吧！我希望将来有一天我会改变我对人生的看法而变成一个开心和充满信心的人。。
