Saturday, January 26, 2008
sighs.. its finally weekend.. but yet.. i know its not going to be a good weekend..
babe is still busy with her filming.. seriously i feel like yelling at her friends.. cos they're all fckers.. zZz.. always dun wan to do work etc.. and babe also so kuku to do all the work for them and making herself so worn out.. even heavy equipment also no body wants to take.. and my babe will always be the one taking them.. even after me telling her so many times NOT to do it..
end up she dont even have much energy to do anything with me.. and always have aches all over when we finally able to meet up.. always likdat.. i feel as if she devote too much into the project and when i meet her.. shes already half dead.. its like if u're looking forward to something but then when u see it.. u get disappointed becos of all the bad things..
zzz... there isnt much more time left before i enlist.. and it seems like i cant even do much with my gf.. shes so tired after all her shit work and everytime she has to push herself even more if she wants to spend time with me.. i seriously dont like it!..
eventhough yeah i know shes doing it for me.. but still? i dont like it becos shes pushing herself and end up being even more tired etc.. it just sucks.. think about it...
yeahs i can keep myself entertained.. but its not helping.. nowadays i feel more and more retarded.. i start to question myself.. and maple is stupid to play alone.. everytime i get fed up when shit happens in maple and im always the only one there... when im in a party how i wish the priest is babe and not just another random...
sighs.. im not happy! but yet i cant express them out.. but on the other hand.. even if i can express it.. does/will it change anything?.. i guess not...
im just ranting now becos it sucks.. everything sucked.. i have yet to update wat happened at work place.. when i got time then i will update..
as it get nearer to my enlistment date.. everything just seem to get even more serious to me.. and little promises do make a big difference..
i dont know how to explain but nevermind.. perhaps all these is just becos i got overly concerned and it turn out with side effects..
aniway this post is just a rant for myself.. so i can relief some unhappiness...
