Thursday, October 11, 2007
today is the 7th anniversary day with darling..
but the whole day has been destroyed due to stupid guild drama.. im so pissed off right now till i duno wat to say..
onces again it just demoralize me even more regarding the guild..
just becos of a little eternia shit everyone is talking about leaving the guild and crap.. is this how loyalty work?.. and do they even have the minimum respect for the guild and myself.. i just stare at the chat the whole time and hope things will sort out soon.. but it just get worst and worst..
from personal problems they bring it into the guild as a guild problem now.. so it just smack dreams right into this shit.. and talking of breaking alliance like as if they didnt cared.. if thats so.. why do they even bother saying they want an alliance since the start?!.. i didnt planned to ally so soon.. if it wasnt due to someone who keep bringing it up to me that we shd try out..
and now when shit happens they say break alliance.. as easy and simple as it seems uh.. people are all so self centered.. i've have a hard time trying to get things going and well not to mention this fcking drama.. when shit happens.. where it all end up to?.. THE LEADER!..
i tried to stay as low profile and drama free as possible.. but fck shit have to happen.. and u know wat happens.. pple dont pick it out on the pple that caused it.. but the whole guild.. and the leader.. and people who started it can easily quit guild one day and maybe get over with it.. but a guild reputation onces smashed.. will always be bad..
i dont wan to create any shit now becos our guild is still so weak and unestablished.. creating drama and making us "well known" only kills our future development.. know why other guild can be so bossy and crap?.. its either becos they're already strong or they have some backing somewhere..
but dreams?.. we're still growing.. sighs.. sickening!.. the issues was already there.. but people dont bother to settle it out in private or watever.. and now when it clashes they start making a big fuss over it.. like why the leaders nv do this and that.. blame blame blame.. is this how humans love to get on with their lives?
they dont wan to spend more time improving themselve strengthen the guild etc but spending time on all these craps..
im lost of words..
if can i also wish to just stand alone with 56 members.. but look.. the guild only has like 10+ pple active.. imo if we arent that strong ourselves we dont have any rights to go comment on other people crap.. saying pple suck or watever.. cos we cant even fix our own mess.. trying so hard to get pple on and active.. but how hard can i do it?.. point a gun at their head and say u better fcking play?.. of cos not.. so well if the members themselve dont wana put in the effort and devotion.. i cant do much either...
i know theres pple that really care and shown effort like raina and dar.. but its not enuff... we need more pple who really share the same views..
i seriously wonder why shd i continue to devote so much.. it just seems like watever i do it doesnt help at all.. DnS is doing so much better interm of their recruitment and etc.. at least they have decent amount of trans... more then us.. imo dns is feeling bossy in the alliance becos of their strength.. if we want to make them respect us etc.. our members need to work harder get more lvls and trans.. its just like real life.. the richer and higher educated one will be more respected in the society..
i really hope pple can stop talking and spending time into uneeded place but work on themselves.. if they want to pick a fight.. wats the point of using typing and mouth.. just freaking level high and show it in real action.. kill those pple in WoE and make them STFU.. thats the best way imo.. no point gaying over text... it just irritates me!..
i cant stand Eternia and i will not.. im quiet doesnt mean im not pissed or i dont bother.. i just want to be realistic.. shut up now and return the favour next time.. no point talking now... the other reason why im quiet is becos i also see some fault of our side.. when they started wacking in WoE.. all those could have been avoided.. but everyone just went stubborn and watever i say doesnt make a difference...
sickening..
The guild need more to grow up and be stronger!!...
