Saturday, October 27, 2007
finally.. its sat.. i just got up from my sleep.. been a couple of days since i get to sleep till this hr of the day again lols..
well i started working on wednesday.. it was so sudden.. as i dont have much notice in advance.. and onces they contact me.. i was expected to start work the next day.. gawd..
sighs.. well this job is really stressful for me and it really pushes me to do stuffs i didnt like before.. lols like taking lots of public transport?.. waking up at 6 50am every morning.. and learning to communicate with adults.. which im not good at..
aniway somehow though i dont have to work today i still cant really enjoy my sleep.. sighs.. i tot i would be able to have a really good rest.. but watever.. hope i will really get used to it.. like wat benson said.. he mention that he also felt like that in the first few weeks..
hais.. my life is really not on the track.. theres so much things i regret not doing properly.. its hard to describe my inner feelings.. but it just a deep feeling of being lost and helpless.. watever it is.. life still has to go on uh?..
aniway just through these few days of work.. i've seen and experience of hows life gona be as a real adult with family.. everyone around me is at least in the late 20s, 30s or more in the office.. the stuffs they talk about and such just makes me feel stressed..
sighs..
seriously we all need to know of our future plans.. its such a pain when u know u need to do something but u just couldnt get it done..
hais.. looking back too much is really bad.. its really time we look ahead now.. and give up on things that need to be given up..
as for gaming.. im moving towards ending my gaming life soon.. if i were to quit RO.. im not going to play anymore game.. sick of it.. it had caused enough damage to my life already..
aniway later tonight we gona celebrate zn 21st birthday.. heh hope it's gona be a great night.. sighs then tmr i think im gona have some family lunch thingy.. and darling also gona be busy tmr.. sighs.. and before i know it.. its gona be monday..
the coming week's going to be long and hard.. i better be prepared for wats coming my way..
time just seem to get lesser and lesser.. especially when im moving towards the army enlistment date..
kinda bothering..
feeling stucked up...
miss darling.. you play an important role to why im still able to withstand all these shit in my life.. sighs hugs babe and thanks again..
