Saturday, May 05, 2007
just wakeup..
sighs thought it was still early.. but when i look at my hp.. i say wtf.. already half day gone.. and yeah im closer to my stupid review..
the guys are having bowling now and they gona catch spiderman 3 later.. cool.. nt sure wat my plans would be for the night.. but now.. mood isnt great.. due to certain issues beside my project.. sighs.. and its still in my head troubling me..
hate it when im under stress.. i get irritated and over sensitive easily.. so maybe even an ant biting me will piss me off.. at these kinda times is when i will normally MIA to prevent bad things from happening..
anyway yesturday i stayed in project room until 9pm.. zn came ard 8+pm to accompany me and even got me dinner.. so nice =) thanks man.. first time xD..
left project room at 9pm cause the stupid lecturer want to lock up the centre already.. so he chase us out.. kns.. he's a bastard.. zZz.. so well i went home together with zn..
lol i let zn play games while i do my project.. afterall my project is so boring im sure he wouldnt enjoy looking at it while i do lols..
around 2+am if im not wrong.. darling came to my hse.. brought my favourite almond dessert and even made a card for me too.. so nice aw... but sadly she got to go home before her mum wakes up..
3 of us ate the dessert together.. zn, me and darling.. lol and everyone was using a computer.. zn playing game on my pc while darling and i using our own laptops.. at a certain moment i suddenly felt as if they were my real siblings.. or in another way whereby i bring my gf home and my didi zn is playing game in the same room as me and my gf were in.. the feeling was so virtual yet felt almost real.. sighs.. if only i really had siblings around my age.. both my sis were so much ahead of me interm of age.. always so left out.. its like having no siblings at all.. sighs but anyway.. i shdnt complain.. because some people they dont have any siblings at all.. and the kind of loneliness must be so intense..
had fun with zn laughing through those funny videos on youtube.. lols.. insane pranks.. time flies and soon its time to say goodbye.. zn left at 4+am.. he walked out alone to get cab.. i feel so bad.. hais.. when he leaving i wanted to return him money for the dinner.. but he said a sentence that made me felt that it was sweet.. cant recall but its something like.. “那晚餐是我买来请你吃的”... =(.. and when he bring the dinner over.. it was still quite hot cos he took a cab.. his eyes were red throughout the night so could see that his tired.. but still he tried to stay with me till his limit.. eventhough its just sitting there playing game or doing boring stuff.. thanks man didi.. =(..
darling left at around near 7am.. and yeah.. its sad too.. just hate to say goodbye.. just like tearing a piece of meat from you.. haiss..
i guess im just the kind of people that love to have people by my side supporting me.. like real siblings.. cause my sisters never supported me before.. due to the age gap and difference in gender whatever i do just seem wrong to them..
sighs.. why am i talking about all these.. yeah.. emo onces again.. im tired... sick of my emo character... it goes give any benefits but extra trouble.. can i go for a brain wash?!..
我好累。。。
谢谢你zn弟弟。。谢你给我的晚餐和陪伴。。
真的要谢谢你陪了我一整晚。。
当然我也要谢谢我亲爱的von。。
谢谢你为我做的一切。。
虽然我不知道你为什么又问我那问题。。
但我只能认为我不够好。。
我的心情一直没好过。。
这几天你要好好的照顾身体。。
而且拜托请你早点睡。。
我知道你已经很累了。。
不要一直为了我而假装你不累。。
虽然我会感动但是傻瓜。。
你要知道我也同时会为你担忧。。
这几天我就让你好好的休息吧。。
爱你。。。
想你。。。
