Tuesday, April 03, 2007
hmm darling sleeping on bus again lols.. silly darling always so tired still dont want to sleep early =(.. sighs aniway tonight we're not meeting cause her mum isnt happy with her hanging out late all the time..
so better for darling to go home earlier.. and well she has alot of task coming up le.. better for her to go home earlier get some rest..
as for me.. i cant elaborate how am i feeling right now.. still pretty much the same.. its scary.. i even forgot how happiness feels like suddenly.. like something suddenly ate away something inside me.. is it due to the sickness? i think my mood changed after i fell sick.. its not due to my relationship.. cause darling always had been very caring and loving towards me.. and our relationship's going fine.. we didnt had any quarrel at all.. and it's so well that sometimes i wonder if im dreaming...
waking up and feeling lost.. wonder if everything was just a dream...
perhaps the only downfall is cause im giving myself too much stress.. trying to be perfect for darling.. worried that her friends/parents/relatives wont like me.. and how to make myself better around with them.. like interact with them etc.... plus many many other factors..
hope i get over all these personal stress and sickness soon..
my mind is all about you...darling im going crazy...day and night i think of you...missing you as petals falls...loving you like a angel in the sky...
