Monday, March 19, 2007
sighs..
suddenly just feel so ..... dull? or lost?...
maybe cos of a bad morning.. and neverending disconnections from the internet which i cant figure out why and whats causing the disconnections.. it really irritates me everyday.. especially when i talking to darling on msn and webcam...
so angry until i feel like throwing the router away.. really lor! haiss.. if im not talking to darling its ok.. i cant be bothered.. but it happens all the time.. and its like so frequent.. every 10mins or more will dc onces.. and i have to go reset the cable modem and router downstair..
it just make me nuts.. the kind of feeling is so angry can.. not to mention how much i cherish every second chatting with darling.. especially webcam.. everytime i get dced half way through our sweet conversations the feeling is really very uncomfortable...
sighs..
i guess i shdnt try to joke or lame.. cause i suck at it.... twice i have opposite results from darling.. hais...
mum just came and nag at me again.. wtf is wrong with her today!.. keep nagging at me not giving me any peace!.. feel so crazy insane now until like im going to explode...
ah and wtf.. an ant just bit me.. -.-" dots....
sighs this morning mum also tell me this year is bad luck for 'Tigers'.. and she went to the temple and got some stuffs for me.. saying it will help to remove the bad luck...
i really dont wish the bad luck to be true.. for onces im afraid and being real superstitious.. because this year i've met my dream girl.. and if this bad luck is going to affect our relationship.. im sure i cant take it..
for onces.. i truly understand the meaning of love is blind.. i've been blinded by love.. so much that im afraid of doing things i know isnt right.. like overly concern/ miss/ love my girl.. i dont want to turn into a irritating boyfriend when what i wanted was just to be a sweet and loving boyfriend to her.. being there for her and just right for everything... but this deep love seem to be growing so fast that its starting to form a life of its own in my heart and mind... im really sucked into it...
sighs ok i got to go prepare soon.. 3:11pm already.. im going to meet darling at boon lay when she finish her work at 5pm.. if i dont hurry im going to be late.. sighs...
Loving you so much darling..
