Sunday, March 11, 2007
hehes.. now im here full of thoughts..
happiness.. wondering.. curious.. scared.. and also insecurity..
but theres too much for me to elaborate and write out.. at least not now..
today's gona be a busy day.. morning had my kick boxing then later noon we going to zhenning house for a gathering before he leaves for 'india' on monday 'to visit ahsum'.. and we guys are gona miss him for quite sometime.. :x
right now i also thinkin and missing a girl..
she came into my life with a key thats managed to open up my heart onces again....
dear heavenly father, god jesus..
i know im afraid.. and onces again i stepped into my greatest fear.. love.. but please.. prove me wrong that im not fated to be hurt and rejected.. i've devoted my heart onces again.. i know that its a heavy risk im taking as i know this might be the last chance that i'm giving myself.. but all that i ever wished for is just simple happiness and true love..
please guide me to be the perfect guy for her.. i know i've many flaws and inperfections and thats the reason why im so scared and insecured..
afraid that i cant be her everything...
afraid of losing her in the end..
here i pray with tears.. hoping that this sweet dream that's just starting will last forever till eternity..
i pray in your precious name..
amen..
although we're both kinda not clear about whats ahead of us.. and even now.. but im sure about something.. my misses and feelings for you.. its so strong that you just cant stop appearing in my mind and heart..
i dont know if its a mistake to let u know how i feel about u.. so soon.. but all i know is now that i had chosen this road.. i will walk it till the very end.. unless u decide to blow up this path.. which i hope wont =(
i wont declare that im in love with you till u give me the permission to love you fully.. im so scare that i wont be perfect for you..
so scared of making you angry..
so scared of making you sad..
so scared that i cant make you happy..
so scared that i would lose you..
so scared that i cant cheer you up when u're down..
so scared that i cant be there when you need me..
so scared that i cant remember all your favourite items..
theres so much that im worried about.. =(
i miss your cuteness
i miss your smile
i miss your care
i miss your silliness
i miss your everything!
u know who u are =)..
wherever you go..
whatever you do.. my heart belongs to you.. wherever you go.... i just dont know what to do.. if its all over with you.. i would not be able to live.. i have nothing left to give.. so please dont leave me alone.. time exist to exist.. my heart would turn to stone.. remembering your kiss.. Missing you!!
