Sunday, February 18, 2007
woah.. first day of cny.. and im worn out already.. /swt..
been visiting from morning till around evening.. after that i got home i was so tired i fell asleep on my bed for awhile..
sighs.. well as usual.. topics of cny.. about my life and such.. even asked about my gf whom they saw last year.. a pretty sensitive topic.. but hais my cousins keep asking so well just put up a smile and tell them im single already.. they asked why etc.. but i nv really say much..
my ex-gf was the only one whom had really met my cousins etc.. cause i thought our relationship was stable enough.. meaning shes going to be the girl im spending the rest of my life with.. but well looks like i thought too far that time.. nothing is stable in this world.. and i've stop believing in wat i used to believe..
i make sure that the next girl that im going to show my relatives will only be the girl whom im sure im going to marry and truly loves me.. to avoid all these questioning and embarrassment..
aniway i dont think it'll be any time soon.. cause i just dont feel like devoting into a relationship right now.. although sometimes i still fall into it easily.. especially when a girl treat me the RIGHT way.. and thats also the only way the girl can open my heart again.. so till this girl with the RIGHT key enters my life i wont get into any other relationship..
but haha.. life is weird the girl with the right key will not come by easily.. even when they do.. they might not want to open this door or this door doesnt suit them.. i know theres some girl around me that have this key.. they hold the freedom of choosing whether or not to open.. but i guess i know the answer already..
aniway a full stop here.. before the content get emo again /swt.. haha! come on its cny! i shd enjoy myself!! =) be it slacking or watever.. i shd really enjoy the day..
