Monday, February 12, 2007
sighs...
first paper.. computer system architecture is over.. and confirmed result is "F" the only reason i went for the paper is cause i dun wan to be absent for it and get into trouble.. so i went and wrote rubbish thru out.. 2hr paper i finished it in like 40mins..
why? becos i dont even got the mood to revise for it before the paper.. just couldnt bring myself down to study and concentrate.. seem to lose myself totally already.. on the verge of giving up everything..
but i know i cant.. and the remaining energy, wishes and responsibilities is wat kept me moving day to day.. else i think i will just lay still on my bed every morning without any strength to move.. i know one thing for sure.. i cant accept anymore impact in my life till i recover.. and well how long i need to recover? this is a question that i have no answer to.. aniway all i know is if i encounter another great impact in life.. im going to collapse deeply.. and this time it might be a one way fall....
god.. bless me on recovering soon.. and please dont give me anymore shitty days during my recovering period..
aniway the whole family is depressed over blackie's death.. dont have much mood and appetitide..
sighs.. now the sky looks like its gona rain.. very dark.. after countless days of hot weathers the weather finally starting to change after blackie passed away.. infact when blackie died it started to drizzle but only for a short period.. isit the tears from heaven?..
sighs im thinking too much..
aniway the next paper is on Weds 14th Feb.. yeah valentine day huh?.. haha.. it wont mean much for me.. cos im not attached.. and i dun think i will enjoy finding a date just to accompany me out on that night.. cos the fact is we're not even real lovers...
so well to plan up for the day.. i've called BBDC just now and they told me yeah i can take my practicals without passing BTT and having PDL.. but only the first few lessons.. so well since i can take them i've decided to go for it.. so i've booked 2 theory lesson and 1 practical lesson for the whole noon.. so well when i finished my exam at 11am i will go striaght down to BBDC from 1:55pm till 5:25pm... and well at night i guess i prolly rest at home and plan my weekend for new year shopping etc.. or unless benjamin and benson wana meet me..
and well thursday i will be going CMPB for my NS medical check up.. haha.. sians.. hated check ups...
and well going to change my phone.. Sony Ericson k800i i guess.. since its recommended by most people and even my sister whom had been using it soon after the phone was realeased in the phone market.. and until now she still haven really complain about the phone.. so i trust her..
actually i wanted to be a loyal Nokia supporter.. but too bad i heard too much shit about their N' series phones which i actually wanted to get.. so well this time round Nokia dont give me a valid reason to continue supporting them till they come out better models with stabled functions..
aniway when i go to get my new phone at starhub center ima get my cable modem changed as well.. been so many years.. this modem was given when maxonline was still under SCV.. u can imagine how long already.. and lately the internet isnt very stable etc.. so i was thinking maybe it could be the modem's fault.. so well guess i'll bring it down to starhub as well when im going to get my phone changed..
i'll stop here..
takecare..
