Wednesday, January 17, 2007
its 8.00am now.. and guess wat?.. im in school.. i didnt just reach school or wat.. i actually
stayed overnight in my project room! and i havent slept yet..
sighs.. lets talk about yesturday.. I thought it was going to be another normal tuesday whereby i will go school by 9am to rush upon my project as its project day.. 8am - 5pm... but never did i expect the unexpected to happen...
woke up at ard 8+am.. got myself bathed, dressed etc.. and went downstair for breakfast.. while my mum went out for her yoga class at the CC..and my dad was sitting on the sofa looking at stocks on the teletext..
but when i was almost finishing my meal.. i heard my dad calling out to me.. saying "yangchun come help me.. i sprained my back" in chinese with a painful tone.. i was shocked because it was so sudden.. aniway i hurried to the living room and do as i was told.. then i realized that its very serious because my dad can hardly support himself up from the sofa.. then he ask me to get a plastic chair for him as it had better support on the back.. so i rush to the computer room and got it for him.. then i slowly pulled him up from the sofa and let him sit on the plastic chair.. the situation deffinitely look bad.. so bad till im starting to panic.. after that he ask me to get him a cup of warm water and i did it.. and also getting him some mineral water and placing it by the side of his chair in reach of his hands.. then i asked him wat happened.. and he said he must had injuried it when he was bending down to take some things when he was at the backyard..
sighs... i was really lost and at the same time im getting late for class too.. and well mum only be back at around maybe 11+am.. sighs aniway dad asked me to go school so i did.. but i only went after i made sure that he didnt need anymore things.. aniway i passed his HP to him so well incase of anything he can just call me or anyone.. sighs.. after i left the house i wasnt feeling peaceful at all.. keep worrying that something might happen etc.. and no one is at home to help.. sighs.. so i decided to sms my sisters about it...
when i reached my project room.. my elder sis called me and asked for more details and i told her.. she then called my dad HP to ask hows he doing etc..
sighs then for me i was busy in project room.. rushing on my project as its due on wednesday.. this new project is so rushing as i only had 2 weeks to complete it.. 4 project days to be exact.. which task includes modifying the PCB Board, testing it, follow by duplicating 11 sets after it work.. and not to mention soldering and drilling takes up alot of time... and well the big problem now is the testing set was working but the actual set that i made had problem working!.. i made 2 actual sets on monday and i tested it and it wasnt working.. so im suppose to troubleshoot the error today... time is really insufficient..
sighs.. aniway at 11+am.. my 2nd sister suddenly called me and tell me shes outside of the house but she forgot to bring the gate remote back.. and she ask me to hurry down to open the gate for her.. so well i left my project room, smsed my project supervisor and rush home to open the gate.. soon after tat my mum was home too.. and she was also shocked when she knew about the situation.. sighs...
dad then need to go toilet and i helped him to the toilet.. sighs... after tat i went to cook noodle for my dad, sister and myself.. mum as usual prefer to eat the left over porriage from breakfast.. :x sighs...
after that i was told that today the repairman for the oven and stove is suppose to come.. then i was like "wtf?" why everything happened together?.. and its clashing.. so its actually delaying the time to send my dad to visit a doctor..
hais.. aniway we waited so long then finally at 1pm the repairman for the oven came.. i wasnt very glad with the idea of repairing the stupid oven.. and the tension from the given situation made me very irritated.. esp when i had the stress of my project on the other hand.. i didnt even know that my mum actually called the repairman down.. else i would had objected.. becos the stupid oven is so dam old already 8years +??.. and best part is.. its not even bought by us.. its from the previous owner when we move in.. and i seriously dont like to use other people left over stuffs.. args.. the guy tested the oven and well its dam obvious its dead.. becos even the electronics were rather shorted.. timer was working properly and best part was the electricity tripped twice when the oven was operated... still my mum keep asking if it can be repaired etc.. i mean yeah they want to save money also not until like that right!.. its so pathetic can.. sighss.. and my dad was waiting for them to send him to a doctor while my mum is so busy about the oven.. argh.. finally my dad got pissed off and he start flaring up.. worst is i became the target.. he start scolding me and saying im useless etc.. never help only give trouble etc!.. those words totally killed me.. i feel so zzzzzz... in the end.. my mum made me wait at home for the repairman to go off while she and my sis send my dad to the doctor first.. oh great.. i was already very pissed.. its not like im so free k i have my project to rush.. and i really dont understand wats there to repair in that totally breakdown oven.. really waste of time.. and even if it can be repaired it will bound to break down again soon.. due to its age.. come on an oven dont really cost much.. and i dont think we're so pathetic until we can even afford a new oven!.. sighss..
aniway i was so upset with those words my dad said.. i went up to my bedroom and just cried.. as i cry i was feeling so angry too... its like i already tried my best to help and such.. but yet i still get scolded etc... sighss... i felt as if im a total moron.. at that moment i actually told myself im not going to bother anymore.. cause i cared for him and in the end i get fucked in return.. i really really hate it! it always happens in the family... tats why we're all not close at all.. sighs...
sighs aniway.. later on the repairman told me that the oven cant be repaired.. and ask my mum to get a new one.. zZzz... after tat he left.. and i then hurried back school.. it was already nearing 3pm.. on the way back i called my supervisor and he was caring enough to ask if everything is fine etc.. aniway he said that he asked his project student whom is alvin and jianfeng to help out my project.. cause he knew that i dont have sufficient time to complete it by wednesday 3pm.. and well thank god that there was no error with the PCB boards (else i got to redo everything).. just some components error on the sets i made previously..
so yeah true enuff when i got back to my project room.. they're working on it.. so well i joined in too.. but i wasnt very efficient as my mind is still pretty upset.. but watever i still carried on..
made afew more sets.. and again the same problem and some wasnt working.. i was so stressed till i started cursing and swearing in the project room..
time flies.. night came in shortly.. and i called home telling my mum im not going back to eat dinner.. and might be staying over in school.. and well i didnt asked about my dad condition..
sighs at around 7+pm jianfeng left with his friends.. so left me and alvin to do.. there were still so much to work on till we got no time for dinner.. so in the end we ordered mac donalds.. which arrived at 9:50pm...
after tat alvin went home at 11+pm.. leaving me all alone in the project room to do.. it was pretty freaky with the environment.. so i blasted my songs in my laptop to keep the errie atmosphere off..
..... To be continued.........
