well zhenning, benjamin and benson just left my house not long.. thanks to benjamin for treating us dinner.. that was nice.. been so long since we really treat each other to a meal ever since the old Mhss days.. quantity and quality doesnt count here.. but its the friendship that really meant alot..

im glad that after so many years.. we're still together.. and thanks to them well i felt much better now.. or else i prolly still stucked with my depression.. sighs.. thanks to the others that had been talkin to me and showing concern..

oh well.. did talked with benjamin about bgr when i was in his car after he sent zhenning and benson home from my house.. he also encounter similar fate as i did.. he told me his gf just broked up with him 2 weeks ago.. and they had been together for about 8mths.. he was so depressed that he had depression and yea he really almost killed himself.. i totally understand his stand.. dun worry ben.. im sure after afew months u will feel better.. sighs..

believing the fact that devoting ourselves into a r/s we will be able to work out everything.. placing our whole heart in and such.. though we might not be perfect but at least we showed every single bit of sincerity.. but watever.. aniway we also conclude that.. we will NEVER believe in girls anymore.. all girls are the same.. with their pack of lies.. nothing but lies... watever promises they made will be broken sooner or later... we gave them our heart.. and all the did was treating us like fools and toyed with us.. watever... and in the end they will just turn the table on u and blame it on u.. forget it.. we guys seriously starting to have enough of this crap.. aniway i dont need to elaborate any further..

well when they're at my house.. i was showing them The Grudge 2.. the english version of Ju-on 2.. lols.. it was funny.. after that i showed them "An Inconvenient Truth" its really very meaningful as it talks about global warming by Al Gore the former Vice President of the USA.. I seriously will advise my friends to catch hold of this movie which actually is more like a documentary.. because its really meaningful and its something in reality.. and its something we humans should understand and do before its too late.. but i understand humans are selfish.. thats why as long as they're fine today.. they wont bother about it.. thats life.. but seriously i cant imagine hows the world going to be like in the next 50 - 60years.. u might think ohh i would be dead by then.. but wat IF u're still alive to see all the nasty changes in the once familiar planet u onces knew?..

think about it.. watch it with your heart and feel the urgency that Mr Al Gore is trying to bring across the world..

lastly like to thanks the guys for spending time with me at my place.. indeed made me felt better..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
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