Sunday, November 26, 2006
just get out of my bed.. guess wat.. i've been sleeping since sat 3pm+.. im really too tired.. and feeling totally lifeless.. yet again im feeling confused, lost etc..
had alot of missed calls and sms last night.. asking me to go mu and also my sec sch friends asking me to meet up.. im sorry guys.. but even if im awake i guess i still wouldnt go out.. i just need to be alone..
didnt expect that i will be spending my weekend like this.. sighs.. im tired.. wo zhen de hao lei.. for the next week or so i prolly be staying at home.. wouldnt be going out.. sick and tired of everything.. before i get a breakdown i better stay at home and rest..
it seems like everything was just a dream.. a fairytale.. isit a blessing that i've met you or just something i shouldnt had done..
i've been abusing myself for the past weeks.. drinking and smoking.. wtf am i doing...
hurts is wat i get in life..
whats the point of being alive?
just who am i waitin for?
i HATE!!!!
anger and sorrows is wat i eat..
tears is wat i drink......
im really sick and tired...
im just like a guppy living in a tank filled with fighting fish.. fuck this shit!! KNNBCCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY AM I A GUPPY??????
as i write on i feel so much pain and agony.. so well im going to stop here.. many things arent wrote out here becos they're meant to be kept secret.. some people might be able to guess..
