Monday, October 09, 2006
sighs.. just wake up nt long.. overslept.. late for work liaos hais.. aniway checked my hp and saw an sms.. which made me rather sad.. theres lots of questions in my mind.. but i dun know if i shd ask.. perhaps its best for everyone?.. i dont know..
sighs.. i haven been really well interms of feelings and mood lately.. so i kinda didnt really talk much and answer calls these days.. sorry people.. hais.. im just feeling messed up.. life is just like the sea.. waves coming one after another.. sighs..
seriously feelings for someone is something that can appear anytime anywhere.. it can appear after crying, chat, first sight or even a simple smile.. but the pain is the point when u need to determine wat kind of feeling it is.. 'cant loose this person as a friend/best friend/sister/lover or wat?' i know some people just striaght away jump into a r/s when they feel something and just simply break up if they feel that its just a crush or watever.. but for me even if i have the feelings for the opposite sometimes i will want to think it through and see if shes really suitable for me.. but sometimes i feel no point thinking so much.. becos even if you feel that the person is suitable for u.. the story sometimes might also not be the same as wat u expected...
hais aniway those who know me should know onces i get into a r/s i will devote to the person and if possible last all the way until marriage..
but now i feel i can no longer determine clearly wats right and wats wrong.. wats real and wats not.. perhaps like wat someone said to me.. im numb already after all the hurts and stuffs.. sighs...
actually i've been wondering these few days.. maybe all along i already had feelings for this particular girl.. just that i didnt know.. because all along i didnt had the chance to be close with her?.. until lately.. especially after that night at P.S.. so thats how the feelings were slowly released and felt?..
it really came so sudden.. and yes i dont know wat to do.. still havin phobia towards relationships..
wat should i do?.. im confused!.. please slap me..!
