Wednesday, August 16, 2006
sighs sister went to melborne for tour with one of my cousin.. sighs im going to be more lonely now at home.. she wont be back for maybe 1 week i think.. or maybe 2 weeks.. sighs forgotten the date..
aniway last night i dont know what happened to darling.. called her but she got nothing to talk to me.. made me feel totally sad and lonely.. shes the only one i can talk to but yet we've nothing to talk about.. and when i ask her question she wasnt even paying attention on wat im saying.. and making me have to repeat them again and again..
something seems to be bothering her.. but when i ask her.. all she does is claiming shes fine.. she totally got no mood to talk to me.. and even when im upset she also never shown much concern.. totally breaks my heart..
while talking to me.. she wasnt even focus at all too.. she was busy chatting with people on msn.. sighs.. i feel so extra.. in the whole conversation she never said much sentences.. only standard answers.. and even the question she ask me is always the same.. haiz.. when i ask her u got nothing to tell me or talk to me.. she also nv say anything.. she was like cant be bothered about me likdat.. sighs.. and she didnt seem to miss me at all..
sighs.. contacting less in a relationship will either make both of them miss and love each other even more or make them drift further apart from each other.. i missed darling alot but yet now i feel shes drifting away from me..
why?.. nowadays all she does is chat with her work mates and yun sis.. i guess i've became a 3rd party.. i really felt left out.. sighs..
why fate must always do this to me right when my love for her is so deep.. resulting in a deeper hurt and disappointment..
have u ever experience the feeling of missing someone so deeply but when u talk to them u can feel that they dont feel the same for u.. this kind of feeling is really heart breaking..
why does she treat me likedat suddenly.. i feel so scared and insecured.. i dont feel love from her anymore..
sighs.. she wrote in her blog that her mood isnt good and that her menses is coming soon.. but why she nv tell me these on the phone?.. at least if she let me know earlier i can understand and wont be so upset.. why does she always have to wait till im hurt already then she come and say sorry.. /sob
