Wednesday, August 09, 2006
hais.. just got out of my bed.. although i woke up very early i just keep turning around on my bed till now.. sighs haven got my breakfast yet.. totally no appetitide at all recently.. i dont eat much and dont even got the feeling of hunger..
sighs.. well my cousin is here again with her children.. so great.. they going to mess with my bomberman's figuring again.. hais.. moodless!.. wat the fuck is happening to me!?.. i just get moody and moodless day after day.. its not getting any better at all!.. well maybe after my exams it will be better?? i seriously hope.. or else i can predict what darling going to say to me.. and i really dont like it.. sighs!..
just saw her blog.. hmph.. she nv reply me on tagboard lol.. but nvm cos theres nothing to reply also.. hmms.. saw someone posting on it.. made me felt some slight unhappiness.. maybe jeolousy? i hope not.. but just dont really like that person.. becos he only interact with females.. i really hate this kind of people.. and the way he always tags makes me feel as if he's trying to flirt with my girl.. normal chat is fine not but over the limit i will not be happy... sighs or am i being over sensitive this time due to my recent bad mood? i know my character tend to get easily irritated and sensitive when im moody or moodless..
sighs but aniway this world is just too realistic.. how i wish im born with the character like these 'realistic' people.. so at least i wont feel that the world is such a sickening place.. becos when u're one of them you wont feel the difference...
lastly i want to thank my darling for trying to be understanding.. im sorry that i totally dont have the mood to talk to her and such these days.. but i still think of her alot.. sadly the t-shirt she wore dont have much of her smell left.. so i cant really feel her presence anymore.. hais.. maybe i could try spray the perfume she put at my house on the shirt?.. but i dont think it will smell like her either.. talking about perfume i really like the perfume she use last year..
meanwhile i hope her sisters will be able to keep her accompanied.. so at least she wont be so bored.. hais i know her sister's accompanies might not be the same as me but at least shes not totally alone..
takecare darling.. love you..
