Wednesday, July 19, 2006
sians.. today i went to school at 9+am.. was late cos i didnt slept well again.. sighs as usual a sucky wednesday.. morning 3hrs of FIT.. ip address, subnets, bits, router settings.. all these just kills us.. and well those router settings that we learn are not basic home routers but advance server routers.. cisco's router that kinda.. goodness man!.. totally had no clue on what we're doing.. and the lecturer just dont want to teach us.. she say cause we never listen in class.. she teach before le.. so she just sit down there watch us struggle..
its really shitty! and every wednesday she does the same crap.. hais.. how are we going to pass this module sia.. next week is trial labtest ler.. then the week after next is the actual labtest!!.. 30% weightage!!.. my first labtest i already got 0%/20% cos i screwed it up.. haiss.. if this one also fail then i got to see FIT module again next sem!! wtf!! which means retain another semester!!? NOOO!! im sick of staying in poly!! fark!! but how to clear this module sia.. gosh!!..
and its so irritating just now in class.. farkin "friend" drag us into the water.. tmd.. he copy the work from other people then he hand up then when the lecturer kan him that he do wrong then he blame on us say we all sitting there never do the router so he cannot do also.. tmd!.. what the fark?.. thats why i hate poly people and i dont really socialise with most of them.. becos most of them are likedat.. they just want to get good grades and some of them can do all meants to achieve their goals.. even if they have to backstab u infront of the lecturer or watever.. its so sickening!..
hais aniway.. just sent some sms to darling regarding our problem.. and her reply caused my tears to roll down unknowingly.. she said..
" I do love u. till now i dun wish to break off. but staying with mii, i know u are in difficult position. one side your parents one side mii. "
hais.. im very very messed up.. i dont know why tears rolled down.. prolly becos im touched by her being understanding or becos my tears couldnt hold back anymore?.. all i know is i have never been happy since our quarrel on monday.. every second my mind isnt at peace and my heart is feeling so heavy.. i just dont know what to do.. she might think that i cant be bothered about the quarrel or i can just forget it.. but to a emotional person its impossible.. haiz..
