just had a talk with mum after dinner after talking to darling on the phone whereby she said something that really tear me apart.. sighs mum said that im such a failure as a man.. i had no reason not to agree with her that im really the most retarded guy around in this world.. but i did argue with her abit that wat i am today is also a outcome of her teaching.. then as usual she go compare me to my sisters.. then i replied its becos u taught me the way u taught my sisters thats why i became such way.. haiz aniway i also nv argue with her much ler.. shes aging and im also growing up i shdnt be like last time keep arguing with them anymore especially when my parents health aren't getting better each day..

aniway earlier on darling told me that the love she had for me is decreasing.. by right i should be happy right? since im complainin so much to myself about how shes behaving and stuffs.. but yet i wasnt really happy.. was upset instead.. haiz.. but i guess this relationship isnt going on very smoothly and happy either.. so i guess its just a matter of time when the string of fate snaps.. maybe we could choose a better outcome for both of us..

haiz.. i dun know.. aniway i just realised that wkrz91.3 changed their songs genre.. becos my sister was telling me how come their songs became so slow and oldies.. then i went to check their website and found that it was changed.. so was the dj's.. looks like they had a change of boss and they obviously have a problem with eurodances and fast music.. grrr.. so sad.. so i guess no more eurodance stations anymore?.. sighs.. people always like to judge eurodance lovers as "ah bengs!" so some people prolly will be very happy that wkrz91.3 changed their songs.. but i feel this kind of stereotyping really is immature.. not all eurodance/techno lovers are "ah bengs" and not to mention that some of the real "ah bengs" also upgraded to RnB's as well..

- i hate cold blooded girls *
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