Tuesday, May 16, 2006
hmms.. two day passed.. hais aniway im kinda shocked that i just resume blogging after so many months and some of my friends already knew about my entries.. like xiaofeng, koni and meimei whom im not really sure who she is..
well my dar also knew but well i dont count her in becos i hint her about my blog haha so its not counted.. i told her i was writting entry tat day so she guessed it out.. else i dont think she would know that i updated my blog lolx.. but im really surprise that the others knew about it cos i nv inform anyone about it.. aniway thanks for spending time to read my boring blog again when u all can choose to forget about my blog.. thanks for being concern about my life eventhough i haven been contacting you all.. :(
sighs.. well surprisingly after reading my blog.. dar seems to be kinda better since sunday's 14/05/06 night.. but such sudden changes can be really scary.. but well i try to look on the bright side that shes really changing for the better and not something else which i dont know.. she said that the whole entries is like shooting and blaming her.. but are they facts or not i guess we both know it in our hearts.. aniway we did chat over the night about our problems and dar as usual ask me to write testimonials for her.. then i wrote.. but she as usual wrote it without much content haha!.. although she wrote finish faster then me and i lost the bet on the last to finish is bai chi.. but i feel that my testimonials are more power then hers lols!.. but well all the things i said in the testimonials are true.. duno if its the same for her..
aniway talk about yesturday.. monday 15/5/06.. i went to sch in the morning 10 - 12pm.. just a short 2hrs practical day.. after that supposingly to go find dar and go out together to toshiba's company to pay for the repair cost of my laptop.. which spoiled quite some time ago.. aniway long story about my laptop.. so i shall not say it now.. but well i tot she would still be sleeping.. but i saw her calls after class and called her back.. she sounded quite tired so i tot she still at home.. but unexpectedly she told me she was at my house there.. i was quite shocked.. but was in a lost too.. cos i wanted to go her house and find her actually.. gosh lol.. but i wasnt going home so i told her to come sch and meet me.. so she walk over and well when i saw her.. i was expecting she would be happy or so like how she sounded on the phone.. but wow she was putting up a kinda unhappy face when i saw her walking towards me.. not something i expected but nevermind.. aniway after tat we went to eat lunch and took cab down to toshiba's company.. when we got there wow the que was so long.. gawd.. waited so long and so uncomfortable cos i was having a bad flu since morning.. aniway later on saw the service man from my school so i ask him about my payment and somehow he manage to get a lady to settle my payment without having to wait for the dam que..
after tat i knew that if we go home then dar confirm not going to be happy.. afterall she came such a long way down.. cant possibly ask her go home or wat.. so i ask her to suggest some place to go.. and she suggest to shop at plaza sing.. so i agreed and we got a cab down there.. well we walked the whole place and seen many stuffs.. but i didnt comment much cos i was feeling so sick and also partly im sure wat i suggest shes not going to like.. so i just accompanied her.. after walking thruout ps we went down and continue to window shop till taka.. along the way my flu seem to ate up my lunch and i was starving.. but manage to grab some drinks and snacks along the way.. so was still able to move.. then at taka.. dar was so pissed off.. suddenly one lor.. i was so puzzled.. then i ask her wat happen.. she keep claiming then nothing happened.. but on her face shes showing the "im pissed off" face.. so after further questioning she tell me cos she want a white bag.. goshx.. haiz.. i also ignts.. even if i want to buy for her i also dont know wat to buy.. becos shes really very choosy and not to mention that watever i suggest never met her liking before.. sighs.. shes really so weird.. want to shop de also her then in the end cant find the bag she like or no money buy then come show attitude ler.. goshx :x.. not i make her angry de but also cant help it.. such moves from her sometimes will piss me off too.. becos its not my fault why u want to give me face?.. but well that day i try to accept it.. did my part to try and cheer her out of it but didnt seem to work that well i guess..
after that she came my house and we took a rest as my flu is still kinda bad.. until 7pm when we went to watch tv.. and had our dinner at 8pm.. after that slack awhile and she wanted to play maple so we played till 2am or so i think.. not sure cos i was very tired and didnt notice the time.. after tat we went to sleep..
well then i got up at around near 10am.. and well got myself refreshed while dar was still sleeping.. after that i helped dar to iron her shirt as she still need to wear it.. well first time i help a girl to iron shirt.. =x and well when i was about to finish ironing.. dar appeared and i was surprised lol.. cos i tot shes gona sleep more.. she was surprised that i iron her shirt haha.. yea cos the shirt was so messy and earlier she was complaining about it.. so well of cos i have to help her out.. and also cant let her wear such a messed up shirt out also mah.. although shes not going anywhere later..
so well after we had our breakfast+lunch at home we went off at around 1pm.. cos my class starts at 1pm.. so we parted as i went for sch and dar went home.. sighs..
and well wat a tiring day in school.. totally worn out.. haiz.. stay in school till almost 7pm then i went home.. lucky i still manage to be home to watch lotus lantern.. lolx.. well after the show i went to find the website for downloading the "Ragnarok the Animation" anime.. as dar said she want the website to download it.. and well i lost the website when my pc broke down.. so after i found it i called her.. well at first she sounded quite alright.. but later on again she gives me the kind of sian sian feeling.. haiz.. later on she ask me if i really stay in school till so late cos she called me earlier at around 6+pm but i didnt answer her call.. the moment she ask me this i feel kinda disappointed and makes me feel she dont even trust me.. u know how guys will feel when girls question about this kind of things.. wat else could it mean?.. and well she said cos i also isnt those kinda hard working type.. made me feel so pathetic.. i know im not doing well in anything but u also dont have to say tat.. u never support me yet u made me feel so worthless and shitty.. nvm.. later on she said she sound sian becos shes watching tv and talking to me.. then i think she hear wrongly and think i said she half hearted then i also dont know why she bring up that i love her half hearted last time.. wtf is this suppose to mean..
yeah recently im trying to forget all the bad incident that happen and is trying to put my whole heart to love her again.. and yes feelings is comin back.. but wat she said is really a sensitive remark.. made me feel kinda upset.. dar u shd be able to feel tat im trying to love u again from my actions.. but like i said how far it would go depend on u already.. if u dun wan history to repeat please take note of all the points we talked about.. and especially points that you promised to change..
sighs nvm.. i better stop blogging for now.. tired.. and my dad is saying me again.. sian.. i also never use much computer ler nowadays.. since my guild Elites has retired.. sighs.. but they still nag at me.. ask me dont play so much.. and want me to sleep early and study hard.. hais.. even if i change they also wont notice it.. just like when my pc and laptop spoiled.. they took so long to discover it.. sighs aniway yea i shd rest cos tomorrow my sch is from 9am-5pm .. sighz... and i didnt have enuff rest today.. so k bahs i better go sleep.. dont wana sleep in class haiz..
