Thursday, December 29, 2005
sighs.. writting this post on 02/01/2006.. 9:22pm.. been lazy so never write.. :x.. aniway this is wat happened on 29/12/05..
today i was so bored at home.. and very tired.. cos i nv sleep much as last night i was with cj.. he accompanied me throughout the night and made me felt really comfy.. i can see that he really care about me.. well at least his actions made me felt so.. sighs.. how many friends will actually show their care and concern?.. i really duno.. sighs.. last time i used to care for my friends so much.. and always giving in to them.. and supporting them.. but all i got was hurt in return.. it made me dun trust friendship as much as i do before.. and i became a tormented soul.. feeling that life is so pathetic.. sighs.. real friends? bro? do they still exist?.. this world is utterly ugly.. who will stand up and side their friends when trouble falls in.. and how many will run off saving themselves?.. im sure that i wont be the one running away.. but im always the one being dumped aside by my friends..
sighs.. life is miserable isnt it?.. if u see carefully.. its like everyone is making use of each other.. that makes me wonder how to define true friendships.. can you define it?.. if u say that true friendship is something whereby everyone go out together, watch movie etc.. and when u need someone.. they dont bother much or they think twice before they come give u support.. then to me i wont agree with u... its true that true friendship involve going out together and having fun.. but if when u're feeling sad/down or watever and they just only talk about u without doing any action like at least a sms or go and visit u.. is this still true friendship?.. i would say it require give and take.. not only u shd share all ur happy moments but also the sad one.. how many people can find a friend being by ur side when ur crying or heart brokened.. its rare.. i used to treat my friends well.. but well.. maybe they dont feel it.. and maybe i have some faults which i must admit.. like always being late and such.. but do they understand why?.. sometimes i feel that they dont even understand me after so long.. and its not that i dun wana listen to their calls always.. but sometimes i just dun wana go out.. and i duno how to turn them down.. i noe if i pick up.. i will go meet them.. sighs.. theres so much feelings inside me.. but how many people actually understand?.. sighs..
anyway.. at around night i went to met hui ting for dinner.. before that kangwei got sms me about going to Ministry of Sound.. but then cos i already promised hui ting that i'll go dinner with her.. so i tell kangwei maybe not.. hm.. i met hui ting at around near 9pm... then we went to try Ajisen.. cos i nv eat before.. hmm i ordered the spicy beef ramen.. wow.. it was quite delicious.. well the noodles was quite hard.. compare to fei cui's lamian.. but the soup was very tasty.. overall i would say its pretty nice..
after tat we went to heeren.. i wanted to get a present for yun actually.. but too late le.. reach there around 10pm.. then all the shops closed already.. grr.. then hui ting was saying she wana go Ministry of Sound too.. cos she got the sms invite.. and she can bring me in free.. sighs.. but i tell her i feel like going mu.. then ok lor she brought me in to mu.. she knew why i wanted to go mu.. eventhough i never say.. but well in the end i still tell her.. cos she keep asking me.. hais.. when we got into mu.. there wasnt much people cos its still early.. but well i was quite disappointed.. cos i never manage to find wat i wanted.. aniway hui ting was rather sian.. so hais after awhile i say.. lets go mos bah.. then she say "really? u wont regret?" .. then i say "hai.. nvm lar" then we go find cab.. kns de lor everywhere so packed.. bahh.. all wan to talk cab.. so in the end we walk back to heeren there to take cab.. bahhs..
when we reach mos.. the que was pretty short.. so after awhile we got in.. but the bouncer there check until very strict.. see our ic then see see our face.. kns like we prisoner or wat.. then after tat we got in.. kns the first room we enter is RnB de liao.. yuckky.. but the RnB room was rather small.. i think about 3/4 of mu.. then the dancer floor and the dj is surrounded by some metal fence.. like a prison likedat.. kns.. aniway i dun like it.. but overall the ambiance and surrounding is classy and well.. after tat hui ting and i look around trying to find a way out of this place.. after awhile.. finally found the way to the other corner.. when we enter.. omg.. stuned.. it was fucking huge.. like a 2 story shopping mall.. even got escalator sia.. then hui ting and i walk until lvl2 and found kangwei and xiaofeng there.. sitting down.. then i see xiaofeng like so sian sian.. then later i found out that she's sick.. haix.. she arh.. always sick still chiong de.. ><.. duno how to take care.. aniway hui ting ordered long island tea.. as she wan to try hows the drink here.. and that glass of long island tea cost $18.. omg.. faint.. hui ting let us try and i find it rather weird.. doesnt taste tat good.. goodness.. then hui ting say mu's better.. ><.. then kangwei brought us around.. wow theres a room that was really awsome.. with lights changing.. from blue, red, white and etc.. in the room has sofa and stuffs.. wow.. really nice.. its a good room for people to sit down chitchat and relax.. cool shit.. after that he brought me around the level2.. wow.. saw another dance floor on lvl2.. everyone dancing on a platform with multiple squared lights.. pretty cool.. then we saw VIP room.. wow.. and the toilet is like 5 Star hotel's toilet.. big and nice.. have small tv monitors in there too.. wow.. really classy.. but the music i really bth.. make me sian.. its house, trance kinda.. good for hip hoppers to dance i think.. as later on we went down to the dance floor we saw a girl down there jumping around.. and her style of dance look like hip hop kinda.. but for me its really not my type.. if they had techno / eurodance i'll love mos.. but too bad they dont ><.. sighs.. so after awhile i really got sick of the music there lor.. cant dance at all.. but i think for kangwei hes still ok with it.. aniway i think around 12+am we left.. cos most of us cant stand the music.. then we went to mu.. mm.. then xiaofeng sign kangwei in.. while hui ting and i went in striaght cos we already got the chop earlier.. but it was covered with mos chop.. lol at first i was thinking will they allow it anot.. but well the guy let us through.. so i guess its ok..
bah.. when we go in.. we went to the toilet steps there.. then suddenly we saw koni, jace and li xuan.. lol... then we dance at the for awhile.. then kangwei ask me to go dancefloor.. so we went down there.. then xiaofeng nv come :x.. duno why.. hais.. then suddenly.. something caught my eyes.. i turn to my right and i saw selene and yun.. wow.. i felt happy yet something else.. i nv talk to her.. but just looked at her.. hais.. afterall awhile i think she saw me too.. then we just smiled at each other.. like bai chi.. :x.. then continue dancing.. then hui ting was dancing infront of me.. and she knew wat was going on.. and keep on suan me ><.. bahhs.. aniway after awhile selene and yun went off.. then we continue to dance.. then at around 1am+ i think xiaofeng and hui ting wanted to go off le.. cos xiaofeng got interview in the morning and hui ting need to work also.. haiz.. so they went off early.. left kangwei, koni, jace and me.. after awhile RnB liao.. so sian.. so we went out to 7-11 to get some drink..
kangwei and i bought jean bean.. then someone called us.. then i saw kimster, selene, yun, and their friends.. o.o then we went over and sit down with them.. well eric was there also.. sighs.. so i also dun wana talk to selene.. then kangwei and i just talked with kimster.. after i drink the jean bean.. i feel nothing at all sia.. then i ask kimster to intro any stronger drinks.. then they say the best sold in 7-11 is long island tea.. so i go buy.. then on the way i notice koni and jace infront of 7-11.. then i ask them to join us sit there ma.. since they also noe kimster.. then later when i came back selene ask me why nv wish yun happy birthday.. lol i wanted to but duno her tat well ma so duno how to say.. but well after she said that.. then i wish her happy birthday.. at that point of time i notice eric looking at me.. well i guess eric is feeling some jeolousy bah.. so i also dun wana talk much else later eric get over jeoloused.. so i went back to kangwei and kimster.. well after i drink the whole long island tea.. wow.. feeling some kick finally.. got abit high.. they say drink 1 bottle high.. 2 bottle wana vomit 3 bottle will seh.. guess they are right... hmm next time i try 2 bottles lol..
then li xuan was having gestric pain.. hais.. she ar.. always skip meals even though she noe that she got gestric pain.. haiz.. then yong went and took care of her.. and she went home after that.. while we went back to mu to dance.. lol.. then saw selene dancing with eric.. and yun dancing with kimster.. lol hais.. while i dance on stage.. haha.. my favourite.. then later on got go back dance floor and dance with kimster.. lol.. he know how to dance well still keep saying that he duno and ask us teach him.. kns -.-" ... then at around 4am selene, yun, kimster they all went home.. i stayed till around 4:30am with koni, jace and kangwei... then it was RnB le.. sian sia.. then i ask them wana go out ma.. but they like wana stay longer.. so i went out to 7-11 alone got a drink and left at around 4:50am.. on the way back selene called me.. and we chatted till i reach home sia..
i got home at around 5am+.. then bath etc until 6am lol.. then selene cant sleep.. so chat with her till 7+ am i think.. then i go sleep liao..
