Tuesday, June 14, 2005
yawns! just came back from campus not long ago.. so tired.. body aching also.. stupid bed just cannot give me a good sleep.. maybe too hard.. until now i still cant confirm whether isit the bed problem or i got insomia.. haiz..
yesturday i never go sch sia.. wake up was feeling so dead.. duno why.. totally like dying.. then i spend the whole day at home resting.. gawd.. missed 2 lectures and 1 tutorial yesturday.. piang.. then around evening i was surfing the net and was reading someones blog.. then i found out quite alot of things.. sigh.. no wonder this person warned me before she gave me her blog add.. the person shd know who she is.. dun wana name.. as its confidential..
i realise maybe she could be the one that understand me the most so far.. but also true lar as i know her so long already.. been years.. hais but duno how also.. many things inside i read le also have nothing to say.. sigh..
at night time.. jr mei called me but i was sleeping already.. hais.. ok enuff of yesturday.. basically yesturday was not a good day..
today so sian.. well was so tired again until i dun feel like going sch again hahah!.. i had a crazy dream last night!!.. i think i still remember abit.. erm got cj, zn and some others i think.. cant really remember.. but it was at bukit timah plaza.. somehow the whole plaza was haunted.. then some people decide to burn the whole place down.. then duno how cj, me, zn and some others which i forgot went into the building.. i think to rescue someone or wat.. then in the end.. when we want to escape i think it was too late.. then we all died.. then got 1 more dream was at the beach dealing with some sort of sea monster.. crazy man! keep dreaming no wonder i wake up still so tired..
in the early morning she send me a good morning message.. it was at 6:33am.. at 7:58am she said she was having fever of 38.4 degree and wana vomit.. then at 8:46am she say "don't call me le.. Bf coming le" .. i never read all the message until around 9+am when i was in school.. there was a gush of worriness for her.. but yet i was held back by the restrictions i gave myself.. anyway she said her bf going to find her already so.. well at least i know her bf will take care of her..
was doing lab assignments with my partner.. and i logged on msn.. suddenly a msn chat window poped.. a msg came korkor.. to my surprise it was xandra mei.. haha she call me korkor.. so cute and sweet lol ! seldom she will call me korkor de.. just striaght away talk to me like hello or something.. well although its just a normal korkor yet i feel it so sweet.. just feel nice.. like when u in desert no water then see a pool of water likdat lol.. some sort of warmth and sweetness.. duno why suddenly i feel likdat.. i think my emotions go haywire liao anyhow sending feeling to my heart and mind... haha.. hm talk to her quite abit and understand that shes also going through similar things like mine.. hais.. well at least i know that shes still normal.. haha!! was so worried that shes gona become a lesbian :x.. if she really became one hor cj and i will do all it takes to bring her back to the right track.. no matter wat.. haha her display pic so funny.. xin ning and her each biting a ear of a soft toy pig.. haha!
hais.. very tired liao write so much things... used alot of my memory cells.. pengs! lol.. i stop here bah still got some other things but lazy to write all le.. i'll list in point forms..
- share abit of my problem with xandra mei
- talk to shihui mei and jess on msn too
- met yunn at atrium during break
- my friend said that xandra mei has very good facial complexion
