Monday, March 21, 2005
sighs.. today really isnt a good day.. well.. slept late in the morning thanks to the previous dumb post.. i wrote so much but then the middle big portion was lost!.. gawd! i was so pissed.. i wrote from 11+pm til 1+am so darn tired.. just when i tot i finally finished my blog.. i found out that the middle portion was lost... sooo frustrated.. and to think that i stay up just to finish that post.. i got very upset then i go to my room and mess with my phone.. after tat i dunno how i fell asleep.. i only know when i open my eyes it was like 6+am then again i realized I fell asleep with the lights on.. gawds.. so i off it and went back to sleep..
when i woke up i saw my clock was like 9+am so i faster try to get out of bed although i was sooo tired.. i went to look at my computer and found out that its only 8+am.. gawd.. the morning haze must have got into my eyes eh?..
i ate my breakfast which was miserable.. porridge and some craps.. eeks.. then i went to my computer again and a guy added me on msn.. he talked to me and said he was from "wholivesnearyou".. then we chat for awhile and i left for campus..
the lab test was horrible.. i donno wat to do.. and i felt like a retarded with the dam lecturer behind me.. gosh! overall i fail it i must say.. then when i was about to go.. a technician came in and talk to me.. he said.. if i dun like electronics then take other course when i got the diploma dun continue with electronics becos he can see that i dun really like messing wf these circuitry stuff.. and he say in the working life will be more and tougher circuits to do.. so if im not interested go be accountant or watever next time..
he was quite friendly and gave afew advises.. after telling me all his experience he tell me that i can look for him if i need help.. so i thanked him and left.. but well wat he said seriously made me thought.. and the more i think i felt very disturbed..
feeling crappy I got back home, talked to shihui abit.. and also Samantha.. she told me she pontanked and her whole class and her were in a house of a classmate staying in bungalow.. she felt that her house was very crappy compared to her friend.. then i gave some stupid ideas like smashing down the walls so she can drop by easily.. but her idea was even better lol.. smashing down the walls by the pond which was separating her house and mine and then make a bigger pond lol.. after some crapping I asked if she do blogging and surprisingly she did too.. so we exchanged blog adds and I started to read her blog.. and it was interesting lol.. surprised that she wrote a little about me lol!.. but well she left soon cos she going to eat pizza and go back school for training..
after that heartless_sOu| a friend I know talk to me then we chat for awhile until she went afk, I was surprised when I found out she was the same age as me..
suddenly my mood starts to devour me although my xiao mei shihui tries very hard to make me happy but I just feel very upset over my academics and also my past sadness starts to slip through the forbidden gates.. I felt very bothered and depressed so I decide to logout and take a rest..
